𝐕𝐎𝐈𝐂𝐄 || Taekook

.19.

Jungkooks pov

Since the day we have arrived at Seoul tae had been acting weird he is mostly in his room he only comes down only for dinner.

I'm so worried about him, but i have to keep my distance I can't just fall for him like this what if he is also like them, what if he leaves me like they left me.

But what if he is not like them, jun hyung told me to open up with him, but I'm scared, even a dangerous mafia leader can get scared, how pathetic.

The way my heart beats whenever I see him, the way I want to hug him and pamper him love and kisses, but I have to hold back. I don't want him to get hurt because of me, even if I don't hurt him what if he hurts me an-

"Jungkook, come down for dinner" My thoughts where stopped by jin hyungs voice.

"I'll be there hyung " I replied to him .

I didn't even realize when I started crying, I wiped my tears and washed my face to look a little fresh and walked downstairs.

Today tae was not there with us for dinner, after what happened last night I don't think he will eat with us for some days, he really looked sad when he said those words.

"Looks like this people are more worried about me than you guys"

He must have been acting like this because this people here don't treat him good, but how can they treat him badly he is a cute fluff ball, he looks like a cute little baby when he whines for something he wants.

You all must be confused by when did I notice tae this much??

It started 8 months back when I was in Seoul for a mission, it was just a drug mission so I only stayed there for 2 days, but whenever I had time from all meetings I used to go for a walk .

It used to calm me down to walk in the park barefoot on the grass, it felt good.

That was the first time i saw tae there, he was alone sitting on bench reading a book.

He looked ethereal that time, his long wavey hair falling on his eyes as he stared at his book, his soft delicate tan skin which was glowing with the sunset.

I never approached him, I just admired him from affar because I knew I have to go back home tomorrow and I can't take him with me he must have family friends and relatives......i lost mine so I know how it feels when you are away from your close ones.

But when I retured to Busan i couldn't stop thinking about him, he was always in my mind I always used to be pissed off at everyone that time, it irritated me if I didn't think about him.

So I did what calmed me down.

I used torture people that's the only best thing that can calm me down, the screams, blood, there begging, that all calm me down.

But I stopped doing that because I saw my angel, I saw him at that flower cafe, sitting there alone.

So I started going to that cafe everyday, he was always there whenever i went there.

After some months I was thinking of approaching him, so at least I can be his friend, I don't do friendship but for him I can do anything.

But all those things crashed in a second whenni saw him kissing another girl.

It hurt, it really hurts when you see your first love kissing someone in front of you.

I was so furious that time and started torturing people again, that's best for me I should just stay like this forever, I should alone and lonely forever, I should stay like a monster forever.