Just Best Friends Online

12

I kind of like how this is becoming a yearly thing, although I have so much to say about the way things are currently going, I love that I can kind of reflect freely here. The date is December 6, 2020 and currently it is 12:17 A.M. I couldn't sleep. I just messaged you a few minutes ago asking a favor of you. I was about to say that you haven't replied yet but haha you just did. I'm about to ask something kind of big... I just replied asking "Do you remember the book?" Seeing if you remember which one I am talking about... and yes I am talking about this one. If you do, I would be so happy. I am about to ask that you read this book whenever you are missing me, if ever one day I should pass on. I have been thinking about it for a while and it would really mean the world to me if you did. I am so sorry Best, but this is turning into one of those...

So Best... If you're reading this, I am dead, like complete goner.

Unfortunately Best... I won't be writing in this entry every year, because I want to write on it every month or every other week (I have not decided yet) But I just want you to be able to come back to something meaningful of our friendship... I don't really want you sad but I do want to be able to remind you just how much you meant to me. Hands down one of the best friendships I could have ever asked for, please do not ever doubt that. Although we do not talk as much as we once did when we were in high school, I would not trade this kind of friendship for anything. We both are busy and I understand that 100% and so do you, we never get on each others case about not texting the other back. We know that deep down, no matter how much time passes, whenever one of us needs the other we would be there no doubt. I never had to question whether or not you were reliable, whether or not you cared, you always showed me. 

You just recently started college and when I tell you, I could not be more proud of you Best. You took a year gap and went into college being the best you could be, I swear when you told me the news that you got into school, I was so extremely happy for you. You are in your element Best, please I hope you never doubt that, you are the best when you do what you love. I was there to support you emotionally and mentally, I know how crazy it can be in college, but med school... I could not imagine but I am sure it was so difficult. But one thing I am sure of is that you will get through it all. You always doubted yourself and I was always there trying to reassure you that you would do just fine, Best I always meant that and I will always mean that. You have come so far and I know you can go all the way with this. I remember we had a conversation about you not feeling the best about yourself, you once said that you were kind of lost and you didn't know who you were (By the end of this WHOLE book, I will help you with this once again) and it really broke my heart, not going to lie. I told you that it was okay to not know who you are yet, that there is still time. And I know you're probably cursing me right now haha saying that if that were true I would still be around, yes I may have kind of walked into that but  I meant what I said Best... You have time to figure out who you are. You had the time I didn't but that is fine with me, I just want you to know that I cared for you even when you were lost and didn't know who you were... and you know why? It's because I knew who you were... I know who you are. 

It's about to be 1 in the morning here, so I am going to force myself to sleep... but I will be back for more entries. I might even be back tomorrow :/ 

Goodnight/Morning Svima 

Goodnight Best <3

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