His world. [HIATUS]

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   I lay in bed curled up in a ball, my body cold and my legs numb.

   Hisoka gets out of bed and throws on shorts. His hair messy like the shower he had just taken didn't even matter. The time was approximately 9pm. The lights were off.

   "My my my," Hisoka comes over to me and tucks hair behind my ear, "is it something I did?" He coos. I ignore him.

   "Let me go make you some tea." He offers and he gets up and walks out of the bedroom. I sit up and attempt to gather my hair so I can put it in a bun. I slowly stand and my legs give in and I fall to my knees. He did a number on me.

   I quickly stand back up and waddle to the bathroom and close the door. I look at myself in the mirror and sigh. I look a mess! I pee and quickly flush.

   Thinking in that ball I was in on Hisokas bed didn't really help me. Why was it he asked to kiss me when he ultimately forced himself into me? And why did it make me feel more connected. I needed to go home.

   I go over to my bag and turn on my phone, I look at a text from mother saying that they went out of town and didn't think it was necessary for me to come with them. She also thinks I've been at the gym and training.

   I turn off my phone and find a shirt on the floor. It was definitely Hisokas. I throw it on along with a clean pair of underwear.

  I open the door and walk down the stairs. I make eye contact with him and he smiles. "Here you go sweetness." I take the mug from him. I take a sip and it was really good.

   "Thanks Hisoka." I mumble, he instantly looks at me.

   "I'll take you home whenever." He says sitting on the couch and man spreading. I sit somewhat far away from him.

   He's done with me already? I was just some rage he wanted to use and toss away? Desolation overcomes me. I'm never like this. I never cry. I never become sad.

   A tear drops down into my lap and I keep my head down. Hisoka looks at me concerned and stands up. He comes closer to me- cautiously.

   He sighs and walks away from me; almost like he decided against comforting me. I stand after drinking more tea and head back upstairs. I put on a sweatshirt and black jeans from my bag with socks. I take a look around before grabbing my bag and speedily heading out of his apartment with my shoes in hand.

   I skip them on as I run down the hallways and towards the stairs instead of the elevator. I sprung down the stairs and panting after 100 or so floors. I stop for a second to catch my breath and continue. I finally reach the lobby and run out the door.

    Hours after coming home I left again and I found myself walking around a park close to my house. I really do need to train. I've become weak mentally.

   I sense someone around me. I knew it was not Hisoka. I stop and look around before seeing someone leaned up against a tree ahead of me.

   I move closer and he sees me. He's tall, black hair and a headband.

   If mother is correct then this should be Chrollo. The hairs on my neck stand up. I slowly start walking again. I knew Hisoka would get me involved in this. I was so mentally weak I knew I didn't stand a chance against Chrollo.

   I reach a point where I'm just passing him, I hear the fort on the pathway move and walking behind me. Do I run? He will surely catch me. I can fight my way out of I need to.

   I decide to make a mad dash and I take off and before I can get far he grabs my wrist and I stop. I turn and start pushing away from him and kicking. "Well don't we have a fighter." He chuckles. I struggle and try harder and harder to get away from him, "I like fighters." He smiles ear to ear. I know enough about Chrollo to know to stay away from him.

   Do I try to get Hisoka?

   My thoughts were interrupted by him talking again. "Stop fighting I just wanted to see who was walking out of our buddy Hisokas apartment." I stop and catch my breath.

   "See? Look how easy that was!" He rubs my cheek with his thumb. I know I can't use my nen around Lucilfer either. Knowing he will take my abilities with his cute little book. If I could run away for a moment, I could call Hisoka, or should I text him?

   As Chrollo backs off of me a little bit I shuffle backwards and jump into a tree. I text Hisoka to please help me and said the word "park". I put my phone back into my pocket and continue to run away from him. Right as I'm about to take off into the front gates of my home, my hair gets grabbed and I immediately fall onto my back.

   "I just think you would be an amazing addition? Don't you think Illumi?" I look up and see Illumi towering over me. I sigh and give up, letting go and closing my eyes. I did not have the will power right now. Father would be so disappointed.

   "Hisoka?" Illumi says confusingly.

   "Ah, I was just in the neighborhood." He smiles.

   Chrollo stands, "I saw this beautiful girl walk out of your apartment and I just needed to get a closer look."

   "If you wanted her, you can have her." Hisoka shrugs. My eyes widen and I get a good kick in Chrollo's jaw.

   I cant outrun then nonetheless fight them. I stand and take off. The three were so stunned that they didn't even take off after me until a few moments later. I run as fast as I can, making it as difficult as I can. I conjure a few huge rocks and toss them behind me hoping I'd hit one.

   It feels like I've been running for an hour, I run into a store in the center of town and quickly speed walk through the store and into the back hallway. I slowly open the exit door and see the bug eyed Illumi right in front of me. My heart drops to my feet and I slowly step back and of course hit my back against a tall Hisoka.

I crouch down and attempt to take off again but run into Chrollo. So I was cornered. What do I do What do I do. I conjure two knives in each hand and walk by Illumi and he grabs my wrist. I bring my other hand up and point my knife to his throat.

"I'll kill him! I'll stab him right now." Hisoka grows angry at me and attempts to step closer. Chrollo puts his hands up and Hisoka stands still. "What do you people want with me?!" I scream. Hisoka tries to look at me with consoling eyes. Not going to work.

"We'll let you go, we promise." Chrollo says.

"Yeah like I'd believe some fucking spiders. I'm not even supposed to be talking to Hisoka again.... pieces of shit!" I say only poking the knife deeper into Illumi's throat.

Hisoka steps closer to me slowly, "How about we walk you home?" He shares. I roll my eyes.

"So you three can take advantage of me? Okay sure." I laugh and Chrollos eyes widen and stare at Hisoka. Hisoka smirks in return.

"How about we walk you home and you can watch us leave. And we don't try to hurt you." Chrollo offers.

"Fine, trust me I will keep this knife on his throat-"

"Don worry princess"

"Don't fucking call me that."

   We walk home, I'm in agony, my mental standing is practically gone. I'm weak and not thinking with my head. "I would just love for you to welcome us in your humble abode."

   "Hell fucking no." I snap. We finally reach the front gates of my home.

   "Okay, how about tomorrow we all meet at a play in the city? Say, a cafe?" Illumi asks. I contemplate this.

   "Sure. Don't follow me into my house." I shove Illumi towards the other two and make it on the other side of my gate alive.

   "See you tomorrow my love" I roll my eyes. Fucking disgusting.