Gus.The real him. (A Lil Peep x Y/N fanfiction)

Hellboy

I was standing in the crowd right next to the stage the cold metal bar grasped into my claimy hands, fans screaming left and right as the stage was dark. My heart pounded anticipation filling my body when the familiar female robotic voice echoed throughout the room "Goth boy clique" it repeated the last word in the sentence over and over as the crowd roared. My ears rang a bit from the sound but I sat still waiting, though I was excited I kept a calm look on my face beginning to zone out the roar of screams fading until it happened...

The music faded in and the female voice faded out lights flashed on in a pink hue, he jumped out onto the stage full of energy and belted out the first note of his song "Witchblades". The fans silenced for a second before roaring out louder than before singing the words with him. He jumped around the stage pulling off his hat he had on dropping his pink and black hair down in front of his face, I was surely star struck as I watched him my heart skipping a beat though no noise came from my dropped jaw. He was right there in front of me and before I knew it he was 3 songs in and standing on the edge of the stage, fans grabbed out for him while I kept a tight grip on the metal in front of me. I decided to do something that nobody has done before, while everyone reached out I closed my open mouth and stood with an unphased look, my eyes looking more towards the ground then at him. My plan was working seeing as his voice jumped a bit from the strange reaction, moving closer to me seeing if he could get a reaction. I kept my slightly bored look playful as not to come off mean but I looked up at him and let go of the guard and let out a soft fake yawn raising my hand to my lips as to cover it. I felt his eyes buring on me now through the barrage of hands he bent down now making it a game to try to get a reaction, laughing softly into the mic though trying to keep his singing going.

A soft smile came onto my face hearing his laugh but I quickly pulled it from my face and gathered up courage for my soul. Pulling my pink hair up into a messy bun I looked directly into his brown eyes with the same semi bored look on my face. Taking his opportunity he plastered the biggest smile on his face and made direct eye contact with me as well, I fell my soul melt. Though my determination was strong it was no match for his toxically contagious smile, my lips quivered as I tried to hold my face but it slipped into a giant smile which followed with a giggle from me. His semi fake smile turned to a genuine one when he lifted his free hand up and gave me a signal, confused I tilted my head as he walked away. Some girls looked at me with a bit of an angry look as I felt the slight pressure of someone's fist him my arm. Jerking my head around I looked to a guy who had long blonde hair and a smile on his face, leaning over he spoke so that i could hear him "He told you to go backstage, that's what that gesture means" I felt my body buzz. Me? Backstage? With Lil Peep? I thought I was going to pass out.

The show was coming to an end and I made my way through the crowd toward a guard and leaned closer so he could hear over the vibrating of the bass. "Hi, my name is Alex Peep signaled for me to come backstage" the guard looked confused then looked to the stage. My eyes followed to see the same Male from before give the guard a thumbs up. The guard gave a slight nod and stepped to the side allowing me to go back through a curtain, I was a bit confused as I saw a bunch of different people walking around, So in my head I didn't even notice the show end until I stepped back bumping into a taller shirtless male.

Frozen he looked down at me with the same smile as before "Clumsy huh? Me too" he chuckled at his remark as his hair hung just above his eyes so that when I looked up, I looked straight into them. Jumping forward I laughed a bit trying to compose my anxiety before I turned around to face him, a smart look on my face. "No just confused" I snapped back jokingly as I watched him pull his hair back into his beanie, "I'm no man for formal introduction but just call me peep okay? I assume that'll be fine since your not a fangirl??" He smirked to me and I gave him a snappy smile back "I'm Alex and nope. I don't even know who you are." I snarked back playfully.

A little while later the crowd had started to lessen and I sat with peep along with the rest of the GBC passing a blunt around. A giggle left my lips as the world seemed beautiful with all its colors though I was freezing, trying to keep myself together I just gently crossed my arms. I was fine for a minute until my body decided to screw me, within a second I began to shake softly earning me a look from Tracy and Wicca. Though they looked away I still felt the feeling of eyes on me, looking over with my barely opened eyes I'd see him staring. He gave me a smile and got up taking a few steps over before sitting next to me wrapping his warm arm around me. "Come on" he said as he then stood up with me waving bye to everyone, the both of us a bit messed up we stumbled back to the tour bus...