Trust me (Bakugo x female reader)

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This chapter contains a panic attack

Get back to reality
This isn't reality
Get back to reality
This isn't reality
Get back to reality
This isn't reality
Get back to reality
This isn't reality

My lungs felt like they were closing up
I felt hot tears run down my cheeks and I hugged Shoto
I felt him carry me into the school and sitting me down on something
I felt like I wanted to throw up

I was scared

I don't know of what but I was scared

I felt Shoto comb my hair with his fingers I think he said

"Calm down.. im here.. hes not.. its okay.. you're okay"

It lasted about 10 minutes. I looked at Shoto, my e/c eyes red from crying so much

"You see? I'm here, don't worry."

I hug Shoto again, in need of comfort, I felt his arms wrap around me.

"Lets go to the bathroom and clean you up ok?"

He lifted me up off the chair I was sitting in and walked me to the girls bathroom while holding his hand like a toddler crossing the street.

"Are you ok to go by yourself, I could come with you if you want"

"Y-yes I'm fine Shoto, thank you" he let go and I walked in.
I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes were red, cheeks puffy, my uniform messy and my hair messy.

I fix myself up to make me look at least decent and I step out.
I see Shoto at the front

"Are you ready? I can ask Aizawa Sensei if you could skip this" he put his hands on my shoulder

"You know father wouldn't approve of that" I looked up at him in his eyes, a sense of rage came in them that no one else could spot but me

"Yes, but you had a panic attack, should we really care what he thinks right now?"

I didn't really know what to say I just held his hand and started walking, he agreed and walked with me. The class was gathered up and I think they were throwing balls.
We made it in time to see Bakugos, he threw the ball, a big explosion went through the air.
I didn't hear the number Aizawa was saying he got because Shoto started talking

"I'm sure the tests are over"

Aizawa noticed us standing and dismissed the class to go back and change, than go into the classroom

"Y/n and Shoto, you are dismissed, I already know what you might be getting I've seen both of you in action before."

We both walk to change out of our gym uniforms and walk onto class. I take my seat behind Bakugo.

"psst, you ok?"

A boy with red hair sitting next to me tapped my shoulder.

"Hm? Oh yeah I'm fine now, it happens often im used to it"

"Oh gosh, ok as long as you're fine now" he gives a big toothed smile.

***

The day went by kind of fast after that we were able to have All Might as our teacher.

I walked outside of the school after being dismissed. I would have gotten there earlier if a girl named Jiro hadn't stopped me. I'm not complaining though, she was really nice and seemed fun but I had to remember im not here for friends.

"Are you ready to go?" Shoto asked

"Yeah"

We walked quite the distance, and when we finally got home we were surprised to see father wasn't there.
I set down my bag o
"I found a note, on the couch 'on a mission' at least no hard-core training for a little bit"

"Hm yeah you may be right, want to do homework?" He takes out a notebook

"Ugh homework on the first day of school, yeah let's go"

After we've done homework the house was silent, too silent, my eyes starting ringing, I heard the screams of my mom as she was being beat by father-

My thoughts came to a stop as Shoto turned on the TV

"I know how you feel about the silence" he hugged me, I hugged him back"dont worry im here to help you all the time"

I love Shoto, he was the love, the comfort, the family I never had i really did appreciate him.

"Its late, we should head to sleep"

"oh yeah in a bit"

I liked to go outside for a little bit before bed and get some fresh air.
I sat on the steps of the house and let the wind blow. It was calming.
After about 10-20 minutes, I get up and go inside the house, I guessed Shoto was already sleeping. I went into my room and jumped on the bed and fell asleep.

***

The annoying sound of a *beep, beep,  beep* rang in my dream. I woke up and hut my alarm for it to shut up. Damn it another school day.
I get out if bed and prepare to take a shower. Father let me and Shoto have our own bathrooms because if we were rushing he didn't want anyone to be delayed, something about that.

I took a shower and got into my uniform. Once I was done, I stepped out my room and saw Shoto making breakfast.

"thanks big bro" I sat at the dinner table and scrolled on my phone as he cooked

"you know I'm not much other than you." he turned off the stove

"honestly, let me make breakfast one say when dad is gone, yeah you're a good cook and all, but you're always doing things for me" I truly felt like I didn't deserve all the love Shoto was giving me, I felt like any type of love anyone gives me I don't deserve it. they're wasting thier energy.

Shoto walks up to me "No, I know what you're thinking. Let me y/n.." he hugged me "Let me appreciate and love your presence"

I was shocked he was hugging me, he only ever hugged me when I cried. I slowly hugged him back. I didn't know what to say.

He loved me, but I didn't deserve the love. I'm useless. I'm nothing.

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