•what killed me• ~part one

chapter 1

He is suffering a lot he is losing the battle against him self that he can't win it .it is either he loses or he dies trying to win it. its all just a bloody fight for nothing

He is giving his all, trying to have the best weapons and protection but its all for nothing he doesn't even know why he tries. He knows how its all going to end but he tries to make his life as long as possible but its not worth it if he's not living and all the battling definitely isn't worth it

He doesn't know what to do next ,how to continue, how to try to make it better and he dosent think that there is something but if there is it is buried deep inside his bleeding abd unwounded scars

then he got shot. right in the center of his heart but it was not the bullet that hurt the most. It was the sadness and the endless pain caused over years that was slowly building up inside him.

He was left alone crying in his own pool of blood, feeling the blood role down his body. Then he took his last breath and he died ,on my own,on the wet ,clod,dirty flore or maybe he died or just passed out.