•what killed me• ~part one

chapter 2

While he was alone on the cold flore he tryed to find a way out but then he realize and told himself " why will I try to save myself, so that I continent to suffer?" So he stop trying

His vision starter to get a little bit blurred and he started to see different shades of blacks and greys in the sky and its like the sky was falling on top of him

His breath started to slow down till he was in a state where he couldn't take in any more air it was a painful moment but it wasent as painfull as those moments he hade in life where he wished to be dead.

He didn't die he survived. He spent a week in a bed not moving at all.when he came to he was disappointed he was still alive

He thought if he would have died he would be free from this hell of a life and stop suffering and will go ta a fairy tail with no problems no pain nothing at all. But those it really end there? The suffering will continent you can never be free.

Its a constant race against your self. Always running away and you'll get caught and you will run away and you'll always be going on like that.but not everyone has the power the couridge to live like that.

His wish didnt coming true. He hade been wishing for that moment of freedom for as long as he could remember.

He hade no more energy no more couridge no more strength in his body to continued living or to do anything so I he just layed there looking at the ceiling waiting for his special moments to come, to free him from his pain ,to make me "happy".

That's what he though that after he  die he'd be free he was stupid and dumb. You can never be free! Somethings will haunt you forever.memories of the past,mistakes, and remembering the people who hurt you the most.those never end No matter how much you try to run away its just never enough they will keep on running after you. You will keep on running after yourself! and they will always catch you you will never escape!

He continued on with his miserable and hard life. After around 1-2 months he was fully healthy again. No one ever visited him in hospital he tried to call his family but they never responded and the hospital didn't let him go out of there.

So he got out of his bed. His feet touched the floor and a shiver of shock and pain went up his spine. He started packing up his this things he didn't have much. Just another pair of pyjamas that the hospital gave him. He looked out of the window and saw a man dressed in black with very few hairs on top of his head. He was thin and short. He had been seeing him this last 3 weeks but his mind wasn't in place and always felt dizzy and had quite a fuzzy view.

Than it hit him. He remembered his parent about something. They had somkind of dead line that they couldn't keep up with and he had heard them say that they'll get killed if they wownt give them  what they wownt! He didn't know what it was about.

He panicked and he felt cold but sweated at the same time. He went to bed to give him the impression that he's going to stay there than he got out of bed ran down to the reception and ran away as fast as he could.

He arrived home and opens the door with his shivering hands. As the old door opend slowly witch a screaming sound he took the shoke of his life till that point in time. He turned a yellowish colour as his eyed flooded with tears.