Change of Law and Heart

Chapter 39: Soon

It's not in this chapter, but the next has it. There are sexual references in here though. Also, two more chapters until the book is finished. I can't believe it.

Awkward was an understandment when we entered the twin's berthroom. Ratchet had just dropped the bomb that we needed to have sex to fix my predicament. The second kicker of this whole thing was we needed to bond which seemed to be a big thing to them. That's what worried me. I didn't know if I was good enough for them.

Yes, they both love me dearly but was it a good choice to do something that is a big deal to them? It bothered me, the thought of not being enough for them in the end. They would leave to find another to satisfy them since I wasn't good the one.

A gently touch to my shoulder snapped me out of my thoughts. My eyes wandered up to the golden bot with his concerned gaze on me. His optics were silently asking me if I was alright. Was I? Physically, by what Ratchet said, I was but mentally after all that has been put on me. I was uncertain how this would play out for the better or worse. "Yeah, I am. Just have a lot on my mind and I'm still glowing like a glow stick," I muttered and leaned in his touch.

Being in contact with him helped with the overwhelming heat wave going on inside of me. Then I realized that Sides had been extremely quiet and keeping his distance. It was the complete opposite of Sides that I know; what was going on with him? "Sides? What's wrong?"

There was something obvious up with him and it was definitely making me worry about him. His optics snapped to look at me and inside of them was guilt. "This is all my fault," he mumbled and picked at the paint on his arms. What?

I shook my head in disagreement. "It's not your fault," I retaliated and glanced up at Sunny to see what his features were displacing. Sorrow and understandment were in his optics. Why would he feel that way? Did I do something wrong?

Sides whimpered and slumped his shoulder down, looking defeated. "But it is. If I didn't put you in my spark chamber, you would never be in this situation in the first place," he explained his reasoning and couldn't lift his optics from the cracked concrete.

The poor mech blamed himself for my predicament. I peered up Sunny and we nodded in understandment of what I needed to do. "Sides, honey, come here." I motioned for him to come over to him. He shook his head to deny my command but my eyes narrowed and reluctantly followed through.

Sunstreaker lifted me up in his servo to be eye level with Sides, I silently thanked the mech. I softly gripped the plating of his cheeks and tugged him closer to me. Once his face was where I wanted, I rested my forehead against him, eyes closed. "Sides, this is none of your fault. You did what you believed was right. And I'm fine! Ratchet said so and I trust him. See this-" I pointed towards my glowing chest and arms- "as a good thing. Some higher being wanted us to be together."

No, I didn't believe in God, himself or herself. What I did believe in was a higher being though. Someone or being to ensure everything didn't all go to crap.

Underneath my hands, I felt the plating moving upward, meaning he was smiling. "Both of you got me to safety and that's all that matters. Or least to me. I don't know about you two," I finished my small speech and reopened my eyes to stare intently into the blue orbs of his.

His smile was still there, reassuring me what I had said had helped his ridiculous thoughts. "I like to see you smiling, means I'm doing something right," I joked and placed a quick kiss on the tip of what looked to be his nose.

The blue in his optics seemed to light up even more and the corners of his lips tilting up even more. Even though moments before this, I was scared Ratchet was going to tell me I was dying; as their girlfriend, I had a duty to ensure they were happy and content.