Not a request. Angst
Warning:break down, cutting, sad Sun, unsympathetic Moon, suicidal thoughts, PTSD
Please if you feel suicidal or depressed see someone and talk about it, loosing your life is not worth it things can only get better.
Cassiopeia A is the star that went supernova and formed our solar system, it is gonna be a Sun's mother
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The planets, Moons and Sun were just hanging out in the dining-room when all of a sudden a very loud bang could be heard from outside everyone went quiet hoping that humans hadn't sent another piece of failed technology to space.
Mars POV:
A loud bang could be heard outside I could see the glares earth got from the others as it was probably more technology i look over to Sun expecting him to look like he was about to light the entire house on fire but he looked....scared? What Sun, scared of loud noises I must be going insane. All of a sudden he stands up mumbles "I've got to go" and dashes upstairs. That was weird, what was weirder though was Luna or Earths moon chased after him.....the hell is going on??
Sun POV:
I had to leave before I broke down in front of everyone, I quickly got up said I had to go and went to my room but before I could lock the door I burst into tears and fell to the floor, you see I can't handle loud sounds as it reminds me of how my mother Cassiopeia A fell into a supernova before my eyes
FLASHBACK
"Listen to me son, I love you I wish I didn't have to leave you but I must, all life comes to an end" Cassiopeia A spoke with a tear in her eye
"B-but mother I-i need you" a 3 year old Sun replied
"I love you more than anything in this life my child, goodbye" Cassiopeia A hated seeing her young boy that this but she knew this day would come, suddenly everything went black....... Cassiopeia A was dead her remains scattered across the solar system while others looked in amazement Sun just cried, he did for years but no-one ever helped him, not having a father figure, his mother dead all he had was the couple year older planets that surround him.
PRESENT TIME
moon POV:
I managed to get into Sun's room without being noticed, he looked so weak on the ground like that, you'd be amazed he was the second strongest in our house. The first being black hole. While he cried on the floor I made rude remarks and mentioned his mother every now and again, I also know about his mother's tragic death, the reason I know is secret.
"Cassiopeia A was right when she decided to die, I mean who would want a child like you" I knew it wasn't a choice for her to die but it was so fun watching him weep on the ground, he looked pathetic, I could see Sun was struggling to breathe now and was choking on his own tears I decided it was enough and left.
Sun POV:
Why.........why does Luna hate me so much..... I slowly began to get up my vision was blurred, I was shaking, carefully I made my way to the bathroom attached in my room, I opened a cupboard to see three razors, I grabbed one and placed it on the side, I took off my jacket looked at my arm, it was blank,I haven't done this in years slowly I began cutting lines,
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Why did mother leave me
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Luna is right
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Nobody loves me
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I should kill myself
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Help
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Help
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HELP ME PLEASE
Short memories of Cassiopeia A entered my mind, how she died........ it was my fault.. then everything went black
Mars POV:
I heard a quiet scream from suns room then a thud, maybe i should check on him, opening his door I saw he wasn't there but I felt a bit of heat from the bathroom I opened the door and almost threw up, Sun was unconscious on the ground tears on his face multiple open wounds and a razor next to him, grabbing him and checking his pulse I was glad to know he wasn't dead, I cleaned up his cuts, held him to my chest while sitting on the sofa and promised to never let him out of my sight again.
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I'm crying
