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I woke up and it's now 7:04 pm and Duke is still sleeping I don't wanna wake him up cause I'm still not ready to tell him about that Jasper guy it'll make him more confuse cause I don't have an emotions back then remember I'm numb. But something is changing when I met Duke again he's making my emotions normal. He's making me feel something in my belly it's just... I think I'm... In love with him but I don't know if he feels the same way. No no uh I'm not gonna ask him he should be the one who will ask me dad told me that "never make a first move." I always keep that in my mind. "you're admiring me again." Duke said yawning I realized that he's been awake the whole time I'm thinking about my feelings what the fuck "oh hey I uhm sorry" I said looking away "it's okay that happens to me sometimes." He said and smiled he hugged me again "you really need a girlfriend you're so clingy" I said giggling "you didn't tell me you had a boyfriend back then" he said pulling away chuckles I'm in danger "I never mentioned it cause I didn't love that jerk euw I was forced to be with him cause his friends threatened me that they'll hurt my friends and parents if I don't agree. So me being a scaredy cat I agreed and it went toxic so I broke up with him." I said and sigh I got up opening my closet and oh boy I don't have a clothes it's all in my laundry basket I forgot to wash them "I see you forgot to do your laundry lazy potato. You can borrow some of my shirts" he said "are you sure?" I asked "positive." He smiled and grabbed my hand we headed to his room.

"It's clean in here. Good" I said admiring his room "here you go." He handed me some of his pants and hoodie the design of the hoodie is owl which is wonderful! I smiled and said thank you he left the room and closed the door I changed and it was so comfortable and it smells like him I hugged myself for a minute and I heard a knock "oh uh come in!" I said and Duke opened the door holding my keys "let's go somewhere." He said and I nodded. We both left the apartment and hoped in my- oh our car and he drove "play some music please" he said and I pulled my phone and started to scroll down on my playlist and I picked 'I say you won't let go by James Arthur' it's one of my favorite.

Lyrics

I met you in the dark, you lit me up
You made me feel as though I was enough
We danced the night away, we drank too much
I held your hair back when
You were throwing up

Then you smiled over your shoulder
For a minute, I was stone-cold sober
I pulled you closer to my chest
And you asked me to stay over
I said, I already told ya
I think that you should get some rest

I knew I loved you then
But you'd never know
'Cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go
I know I needed you
But I never showed
But I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go

I'll wake you up with some breakfast in bed
I'll bring you coffee with a kiss on your head
And I'll take the kids to school
Wave them goodbye
And I'll thank my lucky stars for that night

When you looked over your shoulder
For a minute, I forget that I'm older
I wanna dance with you right now
Oh, and you look as beautiful as ever
And I swear that everyday you'll get better
You make me feel this way somehow

I'm so in love with you
And I hope you know
Darling, your love is more than worth its weight in gold
We've come so far, my dear
Look how we've grown
And I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go

I wanna live with you
Even when we're ghosts
'Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most

I'm gonna love you 'til
My lungs give out
I promise 'til death we part like in our vows
So I wrote this song for you, now everybody knows
That it's just you and me 'til we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go

Just say you won't let go
Oh, just say you won't let go

I hummed and Duke looked at me he's smiling that smile could literally kill me he's just so precious aaaaaa if there's a chance that we'll be together I'll never let go of him. "here we are." He said unbuckling his seat belt and I did the same we got out and it's 9:48 pm "woah it's beautiful here" I said admiring the place it's like a forest but it's not you know what I'm saying? You feel me? Eiks "yeah it's gorgeous." I looked at him and his looking at me smiling I did the debby ryan thing and he laughed this would be a perfect moment if these people are not around. "Hey! Are you WillyWonkatiktok guy?!" Said a girl that's like 16 or something Duke nodded and the girl hugged him I was a bit jealous but I still smiled and the girl looked at me "hi I'm Sarah. And I ship you both!" She said and hugged me now I'm not jealous okay I hugged back "can we take a picture?" Asked Sarah we both nodded and we took a picture "send it to me." I said and she nodded "okie dokie! Byee guys enjoy your date!" She said running away. We walked and we found a bench and we sat on it Duke moved closer and held my hand he cleared his throat and said "I have something to tell you." I looked at him "sure, proceed." I said and smiled he opened his mouth and closed it again he looked away and he looked at me again "you're beautiful." He said but I know that's not it but I just smiled and said "duh I know right. I just wanna marry myself sometimes." I said laughing and we bot enjoyed the night. We got home around 2:43 AM it's super late but we didn't care. I enjoyed it a lot cause I'm with Duke I love him.