With All My Scars

Chapter 1

        ... And if all the girls that are insecure will feel proud and confident of their selves one day, just subtract me away. I don't think I can get over my past. How do you feel when you fall from the top to the ground. No friends, no freedom, no happiness, no confidence, should I  say nothing good  left for me. The fire incident  left my life being ruined and horrible for anyone to fix.
        It was shocking to everyone when they heard the girl who always won every year's beauty contest is now known as the one with a one sided burnt and disfigured face. Since I arrived from the hospital and resume back to school. It has been a hard one. Every one abandoned me and stop mingling with me. All the people I thought they loved walked away and left me, lonely.   
I was always wearing a fashioned mask that covers my face fully. It was made by Aunt Grace,my Mom's younger sister. She made it out some pieces of clothes, when she heard me, lamenting about my half disfigured face. My parents spoke to my principal about my mask which was an addition to my school dress. She accepted cause she understood what I was going through as a teenage girl. But still been mocked by my school mate when they remove my mask off my face if I've slept off in class. Just woke up to see I've been surrounded by everyone laughing, discussing, making videos and jokes of.
         One of my biggest bully and hater is Rebecca. Even when I had no permanent damage in my life, her hatred never died. She was always jealous cause I was more popular than she was in school. To be honest, I was first at winning all competition. Talking about the music competition, the beauty contest, the maths competition, and other one I loved, the art express where you express your thoughts with art. I always trying to cause failure to lose so she can also be the first for once but It not my fault that no what matter  I just win.
       I'm just happy for her that ever since I quit competition and social media cause I have zero friends and three followers on social media that don't even know... She happy to see herself in that position she always wanted.
        I was always on my own, reminiscing about those good days before all this. I was all over the school. Always noticed by everyone one I stepped in, expect from one person who never noticed me. It was Davis. I don't know if he was actually doing the thing called l can't notice you cause I can't see you. All my life I wanted him  to notice me or know me. I've been crushing on him since my first year in  senior high school down to my last year in senior school. I was heart broken when I heard he is dating Rebecca. So I left him for her and hoped he doesn't even notice me now with my new story.
       I don't if he really knows my story which trending as the new topic and gist. At least we are in different department. I was an art student and he was a science student so it was easy to hide myself from him and if possible from the world only if that was easy too.
         Some many times my parents had called 119 because of me. Tried to commit suicide a million times but either my parents or my big sister, Rachel stops me. I have been counselled by some many people but it's not helping. And no one could kill my pyrophobia. One time, everyone thinking I was bi or have a mental illness though I was been affected mentally but been bipolar was just out cause I was always fully sad and depressed never happy for once. At least Rachel always wanted me to be happy for once but she was not always around. She was in a higher institution. I only see her at home during the holidays.    

      I know wearing a mask will make me conspicuous and weird but I thought I have no choice. School is the only place I go to. I'm always indoor. Sometimes, watching out my window my neighbors partying and having fun every Friday when their parents are not around. This makes me, left out.
      Well, this Monday is coming to get me ready to resume back to school. I pray this week will be a good one.