No! It can't be true! (NCT2020) -DISCONTINUED-

𝙲𝙷𝙰𝙿𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙸𝙸

Taeyong's p.o.v

I went back to the house after running from the scene. I went back into my room and i tried to process what the fuck just happened.

"𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘥?"

"𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮!"

"𝘪 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴"

"𝓷𝓸 𝓲 𝓭𝓲𝓭𝓷'𝓽!"

"..."

"𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘪𝘥?"

"𝔂𝓮𝓼! 𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓭!!"

"𝘪 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭... 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘸. 𝘪'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘶𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘞𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶? 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳, 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮? 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶?"

"𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓾𝓹!"

The voice finally stopped. I tried not to let his words get to me but all i could think was "what would they do if they found out it was ME?" How would i explain i didnt mean to kill them?

Sure the voice knew i loved Johnny and that Ten was in the way of me and Johnny being together. But i'm dating Jaehyun, why do i love Johnny? I guess it was something about him that made me love him.. more than Jaehyun. Maybe i was confused.. too much. Even if i was able to date Johnny, would i? How would Jaehyun take it if he found out im in love with Johnny too?

God! If my own thoughts could just for one god damn minute stop making me question everything-

"𝘠𝘶𝘵𝘢 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘬.."

"𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓾𝓹?? 𝔀𝓪𝓲𝓽... 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶"

"𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳?"

"𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓱 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓲𝓽?"

"𝘒𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮, 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘙𝘦𝘯𝘫𝘶𝘯, 𝘑𝘦𝘯𝘰, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘑𝘢𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯. 5 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘪𝘵'𝘭𝘭 𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘳."

"𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓡𝓮𝓷𝓳𝓾𝓷, 𝓙𝓮𝓷𝓸, 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓙𝓪𝓮𝓶𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽?"