Family Matters (Poly) (BxB)

Chapter Six

(This chapter is triggering please be warned! Includes; self harm, anorexia, mentions of suicidal thoughts, suicidal actions, and further more please be warned and take care of yourself babies I care about you all 🥰)

Jamie~

I slowly sit up, letting out a small yawn stretching looking around, dad is gone and there's a pillow under my head, there's a blanket wrapped tightly around me and my weighted one was on top of it. I relax slowly, letting out a few soft purrs snuggling into the pillow holding it letting out a soft whine hear a few people talking back and forth and the click of a camera, "Shut up! I'm sleepy!" I whine turning away from them with a small huff. I curl up sneezing softly as someone lifts me, "Like I said last night, he's been out underdressed in the winter and sleeping without a blanket so he has a cold." Someone says and I push against their face, "Shush, m' sleepy and your voice is weird.." I mumble climbing back onto the couch purring as I snuggle into the pillow. Yes I and pillow will rule the lands of sleep together for all eternity. Yes.

I pout a little as the person lifts me up again grabbing their cheeks and tugging, "Put me down you fucking giant! I'm tired and my body hurts!" I whine squirming in his arms flailing till I'm dropped on the couch and I relax again going back to dreamland. I fall asleep smiling softly purring lowly.

I'm lifted out of bed by two people wrapped in my blanket, someone pulls a blindfold fold over my face and they walk out onto what I'm assuming is a balcony. I squirm, screaming as they let me go over the edge. I try to grab on, but it feels like I'm falling forever till I hit the water. I sink to the bottom, I try to get out of the blankets but I'm stuck and I can't get the blindfold off, water slowly enter my lungs. I feel someone jump in as I slowly pass out, someone wraps their arms around me tugging me out pulling the soaked blanket off me as I cough. I cough leaning over the side hitting my chest as the other simply growls at me shoving me to my side. I tug the blindfold off, looking up at Leo as I cough spitting out water looking up at the twins as they run inside.

I tremble lightly turning away from him slowly standing. Walking inside coughing as I hold my throat going down to my room changing into fluffy pajamas curling up trembling coughing softly. It hurt. It hurts so bad all I want is their love but I'm just a fat fucking tub of lard. I sit up slowly walking to the bathroom sitting by the toilet. I look at my body, I'm so disgusting. I just keep gaining weight, I eat once a week, and it's just a small bite. Any other time I immediately puke it up. Why.. tears rim my eyes as I lean over the toilet forcing one of my fat fingers down my throat, I gag, and cough, wheezing and gasping trying to puke but all that comes up is gags and spit. I guess I've puked up all I could.

I sit down, beginning to exercise, not stopping till it hurt so much in my stomach I felt like puking again. I do so, all the thoughts running through my head, one catches my attention, "Why? Why harm me don't do it, it hurts." I frown at the thought puking more shaking lightly as I lean back. Slowly over time, I do thin up, losing a few pounds but it's not a healthy thin, I'm not happy and smiling. I'm not glad about it. I'm sick. My ribs show and my stomachs flat, indented in. My arms are so thin, I could almost see my bone. I have extra room when I wrap my hand around my wrist. My legs are twigs and I feel sick. I just end up fat again, a repetitive cycle. I'm just a sick retarded bitch. I look at the pills in my hands swallowing every last one, the fifth bottle. I lay back closing my eyes waking up in a hospital my stomach having been pumped dad sitting there sad. This cycle isn't new either. Only he knows and only he cares. I cry, begging him to forgive me once again. This time I feel bad, I worried dad and I almost did it.

I jump up, looking at my scared wrist rubbing my forehead. It was so real. I don't feel like I was asleep for a half hour. I feel like it's been years, like I've relived the past few. I sniffle rubbing my eyes letting out a small pant. I felt like I was drowning in my dream. The whole time. I sniffle rubbing my eyes looking up at Leo. He is the only one out and his hand was holding mine, as he looks at the scars. "I heard you puking those years ago. I saw the bottles. I saw the blades. I thought if you needed help you would've reach out.. you wanted us to didn't you? You had another nightmare about us.." I sniffle hugging him gently giving a small nod, "it hurts.." I mumble snuggling into him. "I had a dream about when the twins wrapped me up and blindfolded me and shoved me in the pool from the balcony.. your glares and the kicks scared me, in a dream even.." I sigh.

Leo stays silent petting my head, giving it a gentle kiss, "I know.. I'm sorry. It's okay, I'm here now. I'm not gonna hurt you, and I won't leave you." He mumbles against my ear slowly calming me down as I close my eyes smiling lightly.