Was it Betrayal, Or Just Stupidity?

Chapter 1

It wasn't betrayal as such, well, maybe it was. I felt disappointed, more than betrayed. I had trusted him with my secret, and he had betrayed that trust. And I was fuming. He was never one for thinking out his plans, but this was a whole new level of idiocy. How dare he! How dare he! He knew, he knew that it was my worst fear, to eat someone. That sounds ridiculous, I know, but it's true. As the crepuscular skies rose above the window of the hospital wing, my friends bustled him. Excluding him. Thank god. I'm not sure that I could face him just yet. "Heya Moony," James said. "How ya doing?" he asked. "I'm, I'm okay... I guess" That was a lie. I felt bloody awful. It wasn't just his betrayal that was making me feel like this, but also the pain. I probably would've been in less pain had I been run over by the Knight Bus, trampled on by a herd of Hippogriffs and been left swinging from the Astronomy Tower by a certain section of my body, but they didn't need to know that. "Moony, you still with us mate?" Peter asked"Yeah, you look like a mysterious fog has entered your brain and taken over your body," James stated matter-of-factly. "Sorry guys, I'm just tired," I responded quietly. Peter seemed to accept this response, but James narrowed his eyes at me. I smiled at him, as innocently as I could (I was quite good at it, bearing in mind all the times I'd gotten into trouble with these lot). He seemed to buy it. They talked for a little while longer, but I wasn't really listening. Eventually, they left for lessons, leaving me alone to my thoughts again. Probably not a good idea, to leave me alone with my thoughts, my brain was a dangerous place. This left me thinking about Siri- him. He was always foolish. Dangerously foolish. We often joked that his impulsiveness would be the death of him. Especially this time, because I might just kill him myself. I've been ostracized from society before, now let's see how he likes it. I mean, James and Peter will take my side, won't they? An-"Mr Lupin. MR LUPIN." I heard someone shouting my name. I through these horrible thoughts out of my head, and snapped back into reality. It was Madam Pomfrey, the Hogwarts nurse. "Ah, excellent glad I've finally got your attention. Is everything alright dear?" I smile politely again. "Yes, Madam Pomfrey. Everything is fine. I'm just tired." I replied, giving her the same excuse that I had given my friends. Thankfully, she also bought it. "Right then, if you sleep for a few hours, I can let you go by lunchtime." She continued "Would you like some dreamless sleep potion?" "No thank you. I think I'll be fine to go to sleep on my own." "Alright, dear. Give me a shout if you need anything." With that, she left the room, and left me alone, once again with my thoughts. I was trying not to think about it. I really was. It was just so hard. So very, very hard. And painful, because although physically, it wasn't paining me, he had used me to his advantage. Used my worst fear against me. There was a small voice of reason, a small naive voice, telling me that he wasn't thinking, that he didn't mean it. But he did. He knew, and as much as I wanted to make excuses like I would've done in the past, I just couldn't. Because if this encounter with Sirius has taught me anything, it was that no one could be trusted. She left, and I pulled out my dictionary. I'd been teased relentlessly about my dictionary, but I needed to know. Part of me wanted to be wrong, that Sirius hadn't betrayed me. That I was being silly, that it was simply a... a misunderstanding. I flicked to the B section. Past 'Beguile' and 'Belligerent' and 'Benign' and 'Bequeath' until I finally found 'Betrayal'Betrayal- an act of disloyalty or treachery or treason. She betrayed my trust and shared my secrets But that's exactly what he had done. He betrayed my trust.