M A T T I A
Ale got back he told me Kai wanted to stay home. I went home just to change. I didn't want to leave. I feel like shit. I should have been there. I should have taken her with me or told her I was leaving.
I hate being this fucking way. I'm too fucking controlling, Too fucking secretive. Too fucking problematic.
I'm too fucking broken for this shit. I should have known better than to think I can have someone. People like me don't get happy endings.
Even if I'd did go along with this whole relationship shit. It wouldn't end well. She'll end up dead.
Here don't no day give a fuck about family. They will do anything to hurt you.
Fuck I wanted to...
M A T T I A
I'm got back to the hospital ale was sleeping on the couch. How could he sleep?
I watching as her chest slowly rising and falling. She looks peaceful.
I wish I never did this. I was never supposed to get attached.
It's too early for her to die. I barely got to know her. I want to know her. I want to be with her.
But that is not how it works. I've been a bitch to her. I wish that last night I had spent it with her. I saw the hurt in her eyes when I snapped 'no'
....
I leaned down to kiss her forehead
before turning the light off and sitting back down in the chair.
A L E J A N D R O
I woke up to one of the doctors walking in and changing y/n's Ivs
I sat up and grabbed my phone. I had 3 missed calls from Mr. Polibio.
Shit. I got up and walked out of the room to call him back. "Where the fuck is Mattia?" "I don't know" I mumbled. "What do you mean you don't know why? Why isn't my package here yet?" he cursed through the phone. "I haven't seen Mattia scene we got here" I replied, "have you called him?" I asked. "What do you ducking think?" he fumed. I stayed silent.
Mattia is fucking asleep on the chair and I'm pretty sure he blocked his dad. "HELLO," he yelled. "Yes yes um yes" I replied startled. "Where is that bitch?" he asked. "I don't know Mr. Polibio I'll get back to you when I reach him" and with that, he hung up.
I walked back into the room find Mattia up and on his phone. "What did he want?" he asked as I sat down "he wants to speak with you" I shared. "I don't t want to talk to him" he growled. "You need to at least let him k ow you alive" I stated "you let him know I'm alive simple" he scoffed.
"Mattia, why aren't you talking to him?" I queried
"Do you see y/n?" he asked looking up for his phone cold in my eyes.
"Yea" I responded "so why asked such dumb questions, Alejandro"
I stayed silent
