Coffee Shop

C16 : Strong

"She was raised well— by her parents,"

Jungkook

THE MORNING ATMOSPHERE WAS as amazing as always; even it was cold because of the winter season, at least I could still enjoying the breathtaking view of the city of Seoul. Despite wanting to go to Korea because it's the city of where the famous idols live, I understand why most of people want to come here. Korea is blessed with such a beautiful scenery, atmosphere and great people. Even those who don't have any crushes or feelings towards Korean artists are crazy to go here.

Hyerin had prepared my favourite latte as the both of us were enjoying the food she made for us. Yes, us. I had gotten more comfortable and secretly loved the way where I could confidently use the word us with her. Like, 'Is this food for us?' or 'I bought this for us.'

Back then, I wasn't used of being friends with anyone, especially girls. But now, I realised that having a friend from different gender isn't a problem. It actually makes you feel more loved and secured because they won't judge you. Not all girls are bad like what I used to think.

Wise girls with intelligence are still exist and I was glad that I found one. While sipping on my half hot latte, I looked at Hyerin who was stirring her cup and asked, "I wonder how are you so strong to go through all those moments that hurt you."

It randomly crossed my mind. I wanted to know. I am a successful person who technically have everything I need but I wasn't sure that if I was in her place, I could survive. She had told me the whole story about her life when we were at the park. From her childhood, to her parents incident and to her aunty. Her aunt was such a terrible person for treating her that way. It's upsetting to know that a person like her actually exist in this world.

We spent hours at the park talking about each others lives. I felt so save to tell her about my story, including my past. I had never felt so save while talking to someone except for my family members and Chan. On the other hand, Hyerin looked at me with a confused look. "I'm not sure if I understand what you're trying to say." She let out a soft chuckle.

I shrugged, acting like I wasn't sure. "I don't know, I just wonder how did you survive those moments? Why are you so strong? Not all people could go through such mean and rough situation like you did. Some of them might end up committing suicide." I stated a fact.

I was expecting her to be confused again or maybe said that she didn't know how she did that. But instead, she looked so calm and chilled as if the thing I asked wasn't difficult at all. She smiled.

She breathed before answering. " I'm the girl who is always there when they need someone to talk to. I'm also the girl who had to face many issues alone but will still do anything to make someone happy." She stared down at her cup of latte.

"This version of me wasn't built overnight like those scenes in movies. This is pain, insecurities, abuse, experience and depression that I had to go through just to get to this level I am now. I changed from a weak little girl to a strong independent woman who can live by herself without anyone's help. I took years to become this version of me, slowly and painfully. Sometimes brutally but I did it and I am proud of myself." She spoke.

I kept listening to her wise words.

"I am slowly learning that even if I react, it doesn't change anything. It won't make anyone suddenly love me or respect me. It won't change their minds. Sometimes it's just better to let it be, let people go, don't fight for closure and don't have to give explanations. Don't chase for answers and don't expect people to understand you. I'm slowly learning that life is better to be lived when you don't center it on what's happening around you but instead, you should center it on what's happening inside you. I have to work on myself for my inner peace and that's what I'm doing until now."