When My Life Begins(On-Going)

03

"Thank you for the ride."

I said when we got here infront of my condo. Nagpumilit siya at wala naman sigurong masama kung ihahatid niya ko. "Don't mention it. If you need something, just call me."

"I-I don't have your number." Nahihiya pa ko. Ewan ko ba kung bakit, eh hindi ko naman siya kakailanganin. "So you mean, you need me?" He gave me teasing smile. Ito na nga ba sinasabi ko eh.

I rolled my eyes on him and turn around to go inside but he hold my right hand causing me to stop. "Pikon ka talaga." Sabi niya pa nang makaharap ulit ako sa kaniya.

"I will going to text you. And don't worry about Jey and Marco, I will explain to them what happened." That's what i'm going to say. But may mali...

"Please don't tell them what happened earlier. Ayokong malaman nila tungkol doon." Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil sobrang titig na titig siya sakin habang nag-eexplain ako. It feels like he was reading my mind. Always.

He breath heavily like there's something wrong. Weird talaga ng taong 'to. Unfair dahil nababasa niya yung isip ko tapos ako yung mga simpleng bagay hindi ko magawang ipredict.

"Okay, I will just... think of an excuse. Rest your mind and go to sleep." Paalala niya pa habang nakalagay ang dalawang kamay sa bulsa. I really love his smell. I wonder what does it feel like to cuddle him.

Fuck. Why am I thinking of those things. Ngayon lang kami nagkakilala and bakit ganito yung mga iniisip ko. I hate myself.

"Goodnight, Xavia." He said and gave me smile. Naglakad na siya patungong elevator but he stop from walking when I call his name. "Kace..." He turned to me.

"Goodnight." I gave him a small smile because I know to myself that I am not happy. It's so hard to fake it lalo na at nakita niya kong umiiyak.

After that pumasok na ako sa loob ng condo at pagkatapos maglinis ng katawan ay agad din akong nakatulog dahil na rin sa antok at pagod.

That night was fine yet wonderful because I knew that he wasn't a bad person but he was a good one. But he didn't text me after that. At hindi ko na din inalam ang tungkol sa kanya. Pero isa lang ang sigurado. He is amazing man.

Days flew so fast, Marco was here in my condo. And I don't know why. "Why are you here? Ang aga pa ah." I sipped on cup of coffee and sat with him on the coffee table.

I'm just wearing a pajama and loose t-shirt. My hair was a bit messy and I put on my specs. It was early in the morning at buti na lang maaga ako nagising kasi nagplano ako magwork out ngayon.

He just looked at the window and let out a big amount of air. It seems like I know the answer. "Is it Mercédez right?" I asked him. He gave me a nod.

He looks so problematic and miserable. I've never seen him like this before and since marami kaming ginagawa hindi ko na rin siya nakikita lately. He wasn't like this before, he was a very funny and happy guy.

"She was pregnant." He said coldly. Tila ata nabingi ako sa mga sandaling iyon, halos hindi narinig ang huling salita na sinabi niya.

Nanlaki ang mata ko habang walang kurap na nakatingin sa kanya. Is it for real? I mean... it's not wrong but why he is sad?

I clear my throat, "Why you look like that? Is it yours?" I didn't hesitate to asked that because if it was him. He will be the happiest man but I didn't see that kind of emotion.