The Holy Family

Losing it

The next day I woke up confused. What happened last night? Why did everything turn so dark? I realized I must have passed out. I walked down stairs as I saw my mom and dad sitting at the kitchen table, eating their breakfast. Watermelons with icecream. It looked liked the worst breakfast I've eaten in years. This was not something I was going to eat today. I sat down next to my mother and started asking about yesterday. I still got scared by the idea of everything turning dark and then when I woke up the next day, everything was normal again. I looked her into her eyes and said: ''Mom, what the hell happened last night?''. She looked worried and told me that I passed out. ''Yeah, mom, I figured that out.'', I said. She knew that was not what I meant. I gave her a death stare and looked back at the food they put in front of me. ''You know that's not what I'm talking about mom.'', I said, ''Why the hell did everything turn dark tonight? It looked like this planet was going to explode into a thousand pieces!''. Now she gave me the 'you are crazy' look. ''Explode?!'', she laughed, ''This world turns dark every night sweetie! Is that the reason you passed out?'' I instantly got mad, because she didn't prepare me for anything I might run into on this planet. How would I know that this world got dark at night?! That is an insane thing to happen. It's something that doesn't make sense at all! Why would something turn dark at night? You aren't able to see anything when it's dark. It probably feels like you're blindfolded non stop! ''Why are you laughing at me?'', I asked, ''You didn't prepare me for anything that was coming my way! How am I supossed to know things like this?!''. I stood up and my anger made me fly back to my room, with my breakfast still on the table. My parents would never understand me, I have always been different.

While I was laying in bed, looking at all the different corners of my room, I started to think about different reasons why this world turns dark at night. In what way would it be convenient for a world to turn dark? It just doesn't make any sense. I can't seem to find any reason which would make this a convenient situation. If this is the first real crazy thing I run into, what more is there to come? I didn't want go downstairs and face my mom, but i didn't know how else I would get the answers to my questions. I got up and walked downstairs. "Now can you please explain to me why this planet goes dark at night, without laughing at me?", I asked. I looked at my mom like she already ruined my life by making me move here. "I'm sorry. I know we could've prepared you better, but you would never listen to us talking about earth.", she said. Well maybe she was right about that, but there was a reason I didn't like to talk about that. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to live somewhere else then home. "Yes, well, since I couldn't convince you to stay at home we're here.", I replied, "Now that we're here I can't do anything about it anymore, so please explain it to me before I freak out again." My mother sighed and gave me that 'you are crazy' look again. I didn't even want to listen to this woman chattering about Earth, but I knew I had to listen before I would go insane again. 
"Look kid, on Earth everything is different, but I think this might be the biggest change for you.", she started. I already got tired of her expanding way of explaining things. "Mom, I don't need a 30-minute-story before I actually get to know what's going on. I just want to know why this happens." I was so got damn annoyed. "Alright kid. On our planet the sky was blue and sometimes cloudy. But here they need a sun to keep it blue, when the sun hides underneath the surface of this planet, it turns dark." I stared into her eyes like she just told me the craziest shit ever. "Mom, wtf." That was the most useless shit I had ever heard. What even is a sun? Nah. I didn't wanna here anything more of her boring stories, I would find it out myself. "Honey, that's just how it is. I can't do anything about it.", she said to try and comfort me. "This isn't going to work mom. This place will never be my home."

I spent the rest of the day in my bed. Trying to find some logical explanation of a 'sun' in the books next to my bed. A lot of these stories started with 'the sun was shining bright' or 'i stared into the sunlight', but I couldn't find a logical explanation for the word 'sun'. Apparently it is bright, which was understandable since it clears up a whole planet, but i still didn't know what it was. Maybe I would never find out. I didn't really care anymore. I started to worry about other things, like how I would be able to be a normally functioning human being in this world. That's not what I am. That's not who I aspire to be. It would never work, even though my first day of school would start tomorrow. I had to give it a shot. But still, it would never work. This place was never meant to be my home. I want to go back to Burdon.