I'm Late

I want you to be happy

Perth POV

What happened to Plan? He seemed quiet and kept looking at Mean. He is not falling in love with him, right? - Perth

I approach him and kiss his cheek but Plan doesn't seem to know until I call him.

"Babe, are you ok? Are you sick? You've been really quiet. Why do you keep looking at Mean? Are you guys doing ok? You're not playing behind my back, right?" I said.

"Hmm, no I'm ok Perth just a bit tired. I would never play behind your back, don't you trust me? I love you so much, only you" Plan smile and kiss me.

Plan POV

Why doesn't my heart skip a beat when I say it? It's not normal, did I not love Perth anymore? Why did it seem like a lie? No no no, I love Perth and I will always do it. - Plan

I try to convince myself but I feel like I'm just hurting myself more.

Mean POV

I tried to act as normal as I could but I kept feeling hurt and empty. Every time he looked into my eyes, I shattered myself to pieces. - Mean

Plan is having an interview and he kept looking at me like he always does. I saw sadness inside it.

Is he sad because of me? No way, he probably just pity me for acting like this. - Mean

Mark approached me and said

"Hey bro, you okay man? You zoned out a lot today."

"I told him, Mark. I told him about my feelings" I said while tears fell down my cheeks.

"You did? That's great! I'm happy for you but why are you crying? Did something bad happen?" Mark said.

I tell everything that happens that day.

"Wow Mean, I'm so sorry. How can you act as nothing has happened? You're hurting yourself, Mean." Mark said

"Why do you have to care so much about his feelings even though he doesn't even bother to care about yours? You deserve so much better than him." Mark continued.

"What should I do, Mark? What should I do, I can't take this anymore." Mean sobbed.

"Leave him, forget him, move on, and don't look back," Mark said.

I'm shocked. "How can I possibly do that? I have liked Plan for 6 years. It's not easy to erase these feelings." I said.

"You have to try it. You deserve happiness, Mean. I know you're happy seeing him happy but I want you to have your own happiness." Mark patted his shoulder and continued

"Didn't a producer offer you a job in USA? Why don't you accept it? Build a new life there."

I want to but can I do it? Can I? - Mean

Author POV

"It's a big opportunity for you. You want to decline it before because you don't want to leave Plan alone but now he doesn't even care if you're here or not. Besides he has some else already to take care of him while you have no one" Mark said.

Mean POV

I went home feeling confused. I can't take this "acting normal" thing anymore. Should I leave? Should I forget him? Can I do it? I can't even stand a second without him and now I have to forget him? GOD, WHAT SHOULD I DO?! I cried myself to sleep.

Plan POV

Mean have been really quiet recently. He doesn't talk with the other LBC cast anymore and I feel like he avoids me now. He always tries to leave whenever I'm around. We talk less and less every day until we don't talk at all.

Perth accompanies me everywhere but somehow I still feel lonely. I miss Mean.

Wait what? No, I don't! Perth loves me very much so I don't need Mean. Maybe I'm just afraid of ruining our work since our chemistry seems to decrease every day. - Plan

"I need to talk about this to Mean. I can't lose my job just because I keep pity on him or acting like this." I said to myself.

I approached Mean who tried to run away. I grabbed his wrist and said

"You lied! You said nothing will change. You said that it won't affect our work. You lied to me!" I said.

"What did I do? I keep acting normal like you wanted me too. Did I show any feelings that burden you?" Mean said.

"Why did you avoid me? Why did you try to run away from me? Why did you stop talking to me?" I said with a shaking voice.

"I'm sorry, it just needs time alone. I won't do it anymore so please don't cry." Mean said while trying to wipe some tears that fell down my cheeks.

Why did I cry? Did his actions affect me? No, I can't give him false hope because I have Perth. I don't love Mean, I love Perth. I don't want him to break off my relationship with Perth. I have to reject him, I have to make him erase his feelings for me.

Mean POV

I can't see him cry. I'm hurt when I see him like this. How can I forget when you keep being this?

"Why can't you just act normal for the sake of our work? Are you trying to get revenge on me?" Plan said.

I thought he cared when he started to cry because I ignored him. Why would I even think about that?

"I'm sorry that I can't act normal but I really can't. You know hard it is to act like I don't have any feelings for you or act as nothing has happened. You know how hard it is to see you with Perth every day. You know hard it is to keep these feelings so you won't have to feel guilty." I said.

"So, your feeling is my fault now? Then should I be sorry for it?" Plan said.

I was about to say something but he continued.

"You're an actor, you should know how to be professional. We're business partners, we should manage." Plan said.

I'm shocked, it seems like 6 years for nothing. Nothing but a business partner. Nothing.

"So, everything between us is about work? I bought you pizza just because you wanted it so much is work. I let you cry on my shoulder just because you had a fight with Perth is work. I took care of you when you were sick is work. I ditched my work just to pick you up is work." I said.

"I never asked you to do all that. You decided to act like that on your own." Plan said coldly.

"I never need that attention. I have Perth. Why would I need you? I'm gonna make it clear right now. I don't have feelings for you and never will. I don't want to hurt Perth's feelings so I think you better erase your feelings for me. We are friends and that's it. So, you better not go over the line." Plan said.

Plan POV

Did I just say that? Did I mean what I said? I saw his eyes, he's hurt. I saw hatred but then it turned cold and no emotion.

"Okay, I'll try harder to erase these feelings. I'm sorry for having this feeling. I'll leave you alone from now on. Sorry for burdening you. I'll be a good friend by supporting you. Thank you for all 6 years together." Mean said leaving me.

This is what I want right? He won't break my relationship with Perth. I don't have to pity him anymore. But why all that I can feel is hurt. It hurt so much. I can't breathe.
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