I STILL WISH

CHAPTER 2

In my entire week, I have been through a lot. I made some new friends. They're Allison, Chris, and Adrian. We talked about a lot. We also share some secrets to each other. I feel so comfortable when I'm with them like Hazel.

About my disorder my therapist said to me that I've done a great job. She didn't tell me if my weight gained, maybe she thinks that if she tells me I would panic and be stress again. Little did she know, that I'm still scared of gaining weight even if she didn't tell me. I secretly doing some exercises every morning.

As I leave my therapist, she said to me that I should comeback at the holiday which is next next week. Then she talked to my mom about me this week. While they we're talking, I said goodbye to my friends and tell them that they should chat or maybe call on our group chat.

As we go home, my mom hugged me so tight as if we didn't saw each other in a year. I am confused but I also hugged her back. She tells me that she will be so happy if I overcome my disorder. She said that she will be the happiest person on earth If that happen.

I got happy of what she said but got pressured at the same time. Like what if I can't, will she be disappointed at me? What if no matter how hard I try I still can't? I'm an overthinker person, Like everything will be just negative inside my mind.

I mean when I'm at my therapist I cheated, I still exercise every morning without her consent. I really want my mom to be proud at me. Maybe tomorrow I'll just ask some advice to hazel.

The next morning, it is again a Monday morning. The first period is English, then I saw hazel we walked together since we have the same class. As we walk, I said to her that I need some advice later then she said of course anything for you! Then as we entered the English class, People is staring and laughing at me again and they would even say "eat up skinny skunk". But Hazel said to me don't mind them and mind my business.

The teacher entered and greeted us goodmorning. She discuss about a story of a boy who also got anorexia then got changed after a person said a quote on him "Do one thing every day that scares you". Then that quote hit me, imagine that quote made a man stood up on his own and now he's a millionaire.

Then the break came, I talked hazel that I got motivated about the quote at our first period. Like it really suits my situation right now. Then Hazel said to me that I must go overcome them and make my mama proud.

The holiday break came. As I spoke last time with my therapist, I must go there again for 2 weeks. Before we go there I hugged my mom and said anything for you mom. Then she hug me like it was the last hug she would give me.

As we go there, I said goodbye to my mom and she immediately go to her work because she's a nurse. Then the therapist talked to me some stuffs about how my week goes, did I do the assignments she told me to do. I said yes and all.

As the week goes by, I do well! I can eat not that many foods but still without puking! I'm not afraid anymore of how many weights am I gaining! Then by the last day of my therapy, my therapist got a call in the middle of the treatments she's telling me. As she got back, she told me that my mom died at a car accident.

After that my world just cracked into pieces. After my mom buried I didn't leave our condo and I also began to ruin my life again. One day I decided to come out and go to our rooftop it's 1am and I'm just admiring the stars. Thinking I wish that I might still overcome this disorder so that my mom would be happy even though I can't see her happiness.

Then the next morning I start eating again. I take a big bite surprisingly I didn't vomit it. Like I'm a new different person right now. Then I start seeing Hazel again. She asked me about how I gain my weight. I also go to my therapist and she's shock that I gained my weight a lot. She's so happy for me. Also Allison, Chris and Adrian got shocked at my weight like it wasn't me! Im supper happy with their reactions. And also I visited my mom I really really miss her, but I feel that she's happy now. I'm so happy with my life right now. I still remember the quote at my English class, "Do one thing every day that scares you". That's my key to have the life I wanted. 

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Breaking news: A girl died near the condo of Louisiana. The police said that she might jump out of the rooftop. This happen few hour ago when a man reported a dead body.

Man: As I walked by to go to my condo there is a dead body I've been on I immediately call 911 and they come fast. But I didn't know how long the body was in there. I know the girl I've saw her recently she's rarely coming out of her room. I think her name is anna.

As the police said the girl named Anna, Anna Marshall. If somebody know who she is please come to the Louisiana Condo.

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Well I guess overcoming my disorder is still my wish.

Ps: If y'all didn't get the ending, Anna died when she's on the rooftop. The next scenes are just her thoughts that she already overcome her disorder and made everyone proud.

Thank You For Reading It!

- Aliya Luberio