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"No thanks, I'm not hungry!"

Ok so guys, it's not an update. I will update tomorrow, but for now I need you help.

If there is one reader that has suffered from anorexia, I reaaalllyy need you help!

I have this class named "Mental ilnesses and disorders" and wekindaa had a project. So the teacher randomly gave us some disorders and mental illnesses and I got anorexia. And then she told us to write something from their point of view. To imagine why they are like this etc

So I need dear ano's help (no offense lmao) to know if I portrayed anorexia as it is, and what to improve and change. So if you could help me, I'd be really glad.

So here it is:

Society only has one kind of beauty. (Yes I'm blaming society lol) It's not having a big nose, it's not having small boobs or butt, and it surely isn't being fat.

Don't even think about not being like they want. Not looking like they want. They will judge you, insult and embarrass you only because your waist is bigger than 26 inches. And after all that, no one would even ask you a simple "Are you ok?".

And then you start doing exercises and eating healthy. Cutting calories, and working out. You really become happier and more confident. But then you weight yourself and weight exactly the same as before. Sometimes even fatter. And that's where everything begins.

After telling yourself that you are so worthless you couldn't even lose at least 2 pounds, you start exercising more. Counting and cutting calories even more, making you want to eat all the time, subconciously starting to binge eat

And then you weight yourself: nothing changed.

And then the process repeats itself until you are to the point where you count how many calories a damn chewing gum has.

You start being rude to friends and family, because they force you to eat, making you want to go to the bathroom and throw up.

I don't care what happens if I don't eat today. I don't care if I don't eat tomorrow, and I don't care if I didn't eat yesterday. All that's important is that I am getting skinnier.

I don't care about the concequences and that I can't even walk properly anymore. All I care about is what's my weight today. All I care about is how many calories it has.

All I think about, everyday, every second of the week, is my weight. All I think about are excuses to replace that "No thanks, I'm not hungry!" with something not so suspicious.

All I think about is my progress. The happiness that takes over me whenever I step on the scale and it says that I'm lighter is all that matters.

All that matters is making it throughout the day without eating.

Lmao I think it's too deep ... I'm not sure and that is why I need y'all's helpp pleeaassseee 🥺💜