we fell in love in october ﹄2yeon ☽

1. smoking cigarettes on the roof

jeongyeon p.o.v

  the dry flowing leaves brush against my window as i gaze at the scenery. 

6:28.  the time

i sigh as the sunset slowly fades away and leaves me once again.  i see a couple.  a boy. just about to leave the girl's door step after walking the girl home.  he grabs her by the waist and pulls her into a kiss before she walks in her house.  not too long after he is at the girl's neighbors house with a new hookup.  of course.  silly me thinking love is real.  love is just a figment in everyone's imagination to make them selves feel temporarily happy.  i take one last sip from my monster energy before crumpling up and throwing it somewhere in my room.  i sigh heavily and close my eyes for a bit.

"AGAIN??? U WERE DRUNK AGAIN AND"

i close my eyes and put my hands over my ears as i hear my parents yelling once again.

"here we go again", i whisper to myself

their yelling slowly fades away as i hear another door slam.  another person leaving.  another chunk of their relationship gone.  another part of them gone.  if they fight everyday anymore why don't they just leave each other? 

"BZZ" a new notification from my phone great

23 new messages from Son Chaeyoung
15 missed calls from Son Chaeyoung
4 new viki notifications
3 new crunchyroll notifications
2 new friend requests

"yes?"

"AIGOOOOOO WHY SO GRUMPY", son chaeyoung.  the complete opposite of me; though my best friend but very much opposite

"okay bye now"

"HEY-"

i end the call

"BZZ BZZ BZZ"

"yes?"

"I MADE A NEW FRIEND ON VALORANT!! I EVEN GOT HER NUMBER"

i end the call again.  okay cool phone on do not disturb.  i turn around and take a deep observation of my room.  monster energy cans on my desk.  clothes piled up on my bed.  random socks and shoes on the floor.  eh clean enough.  i look outside the window again to see if it's still light outside.  though the sun was  barely there i take a deep breath and put my hoodie on with my black converse.  i bring my head out my door to make sure i'm clear.  my steps heavy and start dragging as i start walking up the apartment complex.  gosh these stairs are so long.  the music from my earbuds start blasting in my ears on accident as soon as i played the music

"HEY", someone yells in the hallway

"god why can't anyone just be quiet" i said in my mind

i turned the volume higher as i open the door to the rooftop.

a little garden with a bench to view the scenery

i head toward the edge of the roof and stare at the birds flying across the skies and disappear into the clouds.  i smile bitterly.  i went to go rest my arms on the small walls on the rooftop only to quickly retract.

shit

i roll my sleeves up to see the scars from the cuts i gave myself.  still fresh.  2 years ago since the first scar on my arm came alive.  same day i've lost myself.  i slowly climb the little wall on the roof and just say there gazing at the city below.  only one little push was in between me and happiness.  i closed my eyes and just imagined how good life would be for others when i'm not there.  i'm nothing but a burden.  i don't wanna keep causing anymore people problems.  i pulled out a pack of cigarettes from my pocket and lit one up.  i grab my phone from my pocket and start changing the song.  suddenly i start to feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist and pull me down

"HEY"

i'm greeted by a unfamiliar girl with the rosiest of cheeks and a pair of bunny teeth under me

nayeon p.o.v

"omg omg okay how was that?" i show him my amazing, one of a kind singing skills

"i'm still better than u" hyunwoo hyunwoo hyunwoo.  u little 😡

"STOPPPPPP meanie"

"waittttt hyunnie ill call u again later i'm gonna go outside for a bit"

"okayyyyy stay safeee"

he's so stupid oml.  i grab my little purse and put my pastel pink converse on and head out my room

"nayeon honeyyyyyyy, can u get some milk from the convenience store"

"okay eomma love u!"

i walk out the apartment and start heading towards the stairs.  gosh not this again.

"BZZ"

53 new notifs from "the cuties and nayeon"

"AISH these kids"

i just read through the notifs instead of  replying as i don't wanna get slandered again 😔.  i walk down the stairs while reading the notifs only to drop my phone.  DAMNNIT

i went to go pick up my phone as someone steps on it.  SERIOUSLY

"HEY" i call out to them but no response

SERIOUSLY HOW COULD THEY JUST IGNORE ME AND WALK AWAY.  omg omg omg prayyyyyy my phone screen isn't cracked.  okay okay calm.  i'm calm.  yeah i'm calm.  okay cool.  okay.  i pick up my phone only to see a cracked screen.  WHAT THE FUCK.  I SWEAR TO GOD OMG.  i went to go run up the stairs to chase this person.

"HEY"

i accidentally trip on the stairs.  MY WEAK LEGS SERIOUSLY.  i struggle climbing up the stairs as i hold onto the railings.  WHERE DID THIS KID GO.  i look up only to find this person all the way up the stairs already.  oh.  my.  fucking.  god.  i start running up the stairs pushing every person in front of me.  god my mom is going to kill me.  it's okay nayeon.  as long as u kill the person who did it first 😌.  UGHHHHH.  i finally make it up the stairs and open the door.  my jaw drops.  IS THIS PERSON REALLY TRYING TO COMMIT SUICIDE RIGHT NOW.

"WHAT ARE U DOING"

i charge towards that person and pull them down from the railing.  they're body lays on top of mine as i squeeze my eyes shut from the pain.

"WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR" okay geez i just saved ur life and that's all i get??

"uhm first of all honey i saved ur life and are u sTUPID UR TRYING TO COMMIT SUICIDE???  ALSO IF UR EVER GOING TO DIE ITS BECAUSE OF MY BARE HANDS AFTER U CRACKED MY PHONE"

"IM THE STUPID ONE??? IM NOT EVEN TRYING TO COMMIT SUICIDE??" oh-

"THEN DONT SIT SO FAR OFF THE EDGE AND GET OFF ME U PERV"

"whatever i'm leaving"

"WAIT U CRACKED MY PHONE SCREEN PAY FOR IT"

she walks out the door

"smoking cigarettes on the roof.  you look so pretty and i love this view"
- we fell in love in october:  girl in red

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