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23- What I've Missed

⚠️ Long Chapter Alert ⚠️

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I was up in the Owlery. I needed time to think.

I don't want to hurt her, but all I've done so far is hurt her... I made her distant from her friends for nearly a month just so I could get to know her better. Of course it wasn't my intention to get involved with her like this, but I keep getting dragged back to her, even though we aren't good for each other. We live two completely separate lives and our backgrounds will never cross the same path.

I keep getting involved with people my father has specifically told me not to. First Dromeda, and now Devont, and my father despises the Devont family for what happened to their youngest son. He says that saying it was a tragic accident was just a cover up attempt.

Am I this serious about her though? She's different than everyone else but is she that important to me? I always act on instinct when I'm around her and that's what lands us in trouble.

I don't want to avoid her right now, I just really need to think about how serious this is going to get. So long as this doesn't reach the Manor, what we have should be fine. Completely fine.

I let out a deep sigh, and rested my palms on the marble floor of the balcony. I let my mind calm down and watched as the owls flew into the great hall somewhere below me.

In the corner of my eye, I catch someone walking out onto the meadow. I was very far up so I couldn't make out who it was.

I watched as the person shot green, red and blue fireworks out of their wand, and into the nights sky. The fireworks arranged themselves into letters and it read: TAKE ME TO HOGSMEADE

I looked down at the person again and furrowed my brows. I squinted and guessed that this person was Devont, as it was part of our bet for me to take her to Hogsmeade. I sighed once more. Instead of sending some fireworks back in response, I jumped up from where I seated myself, and headed into the Great Hall and sat by Blaise, who was staring blankly at the Gryffindor table.

I followed his gaze to be met with long red hair. I shook my head and didn't say a word, arranging some food onto my plate.

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I walk into the Great Hall out of breath, and pick up 3 oranges as I sit by Ginny. I watch Hermione slide down the bench and sit opposite me, side by side with Ginny.

They both give me an explain- right- now look and I innocently put an orange peice in my mouth.

"Do I seriously need to explain? Malfoy's already told- shown you hasn't he?"

They look at eachother and raise their eyebrows.

"Well... yes but we need confirmation" Ginny says.

The two girls waited for my response with their arms crossed, glaring icily at me with their beady eyes .

"Well first of all, we aren't dating-"

"Of course you aren't" Ginny says sarcastically she flings her arms up in annoyance. "Unbelievable"

I try to hold in my frustration but...

"What am I supposed to say when he hasn't asked me out, but has already kissed me two or three times? What am I supposed to say when he has worse mood swings than me and was acting all caring and sweet a few hours ago, but is now avoiding me? What am I supposed to say when this is Draco Lucius Malfoy I've found myself involved with and I have no idea what's actually going on?" I say grumpily and in one breath as my two friends look at me with new found sympathy written across their faces.