Thats Not Me (18+ Only)

chapter 7

todoroki's pov

i woke up to warmth holding me and the sweet smell of caramel I looked over and i saw bakugou still sleeping so I cuddled closer smiling o myself when he tightened his grip on me and nuzzled his head father into my neck I kised his head as i carefully untangled myself from him and i got up.

i go over to my bathroom, and I just look in the mirror.

thats when the thought popped in my head bakugou never took the binder off before he went to sleep.

i rushed back out to my room and I woke him up.

why are you waking me up babe he mumbled.

you forgot to take the binder off before you went to sleep you need to get up and take it off so you dont hurt yourself remember what happened to me when i did that a few months ago he slowly sat up and pulled his shirt off and pulled the binder off and pulled his shirt back on and pulled me close to him.

babe you need to shower i know you don't want to I know its hard but i can help you, I whispered to him, he nodded and buried his head into my neck.

babe i know just let me help you okay.

he nodded as he let go of me, i went to my closet and pulled out some clothes for myself as he pulled some out of his bag.

I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the bathroom.

you wanna shower alone or you want me to join you incase its too much for you?

he just nodded as he started to undress I nodded back as I reached over and turned the shower on as i got undressed.

i stepped in and he followed soon after i stood behind him as i wrapped my arms around his waist as I held him.

shower and we can just stand here for a while i told him, he nodded and quickly washed himself.

he came back over to me and i wrapped my arms around him as he wrapped his around my waist as he just hugged me. I turned us around and I pressed him to the shower wall and just leaned on him.

I kissed his head I looked at him and I noticed he had a tear falling down his face.

i wiped it away.

babe whats wrong.

I dont know sho, ive only been like this for a few hours but I can already feel what you feel everyday, I understand the mental breakdowns now, I understand when you had that episode when you cut, I understand, when you asked me to step out when you changed.

i quickly showered and we got out I wrap him in a big extra large fluffy towel and i wrap one around myself as I take him to my closet.

something that helps me is having a particular hoodie that you find that helps with dysphoria the most mine is this dark red one right here, some people even have who dysphoria outfits that help them deal with it.

if you see one you like you can take it and wear it when you feel like this.

but lets try and get a couple days from this little expirement, but if it gets to be too much for you we will find annu and see if she has a way to turn you back i hate to see you hurting like this. he nodded as he pulled on his clothes.

i pulled mine on as I handed him a black hoodie. he pulled it on and did what I would normally do ,he balled up the sleeves in his hand and held them to his face taking a deep breathe.

baby is it okay if we just like lay here and cuddle all day he asked. yeah of course I pulled him closer to me and he just curled up a bit I reached over and I grabbed my remote, i turned on the tv and i found a movie to watch. this month is going to be hard.