Because Of You

Moving Forward

Smut Warning 

Trigger Warning 

Emmett's POV

Leo's calming voice put me into an almost trance. Seeing him naked isn't an issue anymore. I have gotten used to it, but having sex was something we haven't been able to accomplish with in the past month.

Turning around, I pulled off my shirt quickly along with my pants and underwear.

Leo had the shower on and already submerged in the warmth. I leaned against the semi open door, pushing it shut.

"You coming baby?" Leo teased as he rested his body against the shower wall. Letting out a soft laugh, I got into the shower.

Leo instantly pushed me up against the shower wall, forcefully pressing his lips against mine. The sudden feeling of fear flashed through my body, causing me to hold my breath. Frozen in place, I was trapped between a body and cold wall. Why did this feel so familiar? My mind felt blank as I tried to think of what was happening.

My lips were left bare as Leo pulled away. My eyes widened as I tried to process what he was doing.

"No." I whispered to myself. My body shook violently at the thoughts of him tightly pressed against me with his heat filling me.

Leo gently placed his hand on my cheek as his mouth opened and closed as if he was saying something, but all I could hear was a loud buzzing noise. His touch caused me to harshly flinch. Tears fell from my eyes as I felt my lower half tearing just like it did on that day. The warm figure still pressed against my bare skin as I looked at the person. My eyes meet with unwelcoming ones that didn't belong to Leo. "Please stop," My voice quivered as I slid down to the cold shower floor, curling in on myself.

With my arms wrapped tightly around my legs that were against my chest, I slowly cradled myself as the rest of my body started to shut down.

The sickening man continued to touch me and try to hold me still. My body felt like it was bruising again and I could feel the rawness around my wrist and lower half come back.

I started to whimper in pain while my skin crawled with the feeling of his grimy hands all over my skin. The buzzing just continued to get louder and louder.

"J-Just kill me. I want-t it to end!" My soft voice must have never reached his ears since I could still feel him on me.

The buzzing cooled as my vision blurred. It felt like my brain was blanking while my body fully gave out; putting me into a dark void.

Leo's POV

I panicked as I recognized his mental breakdown being worse than I thought it was originally. I tried to hold him in place to keep him from harming himself on accident. The blank but terrified look in his eyes told me everything. I should have never put my needs before his, but I did and it was too late to take it back. I turned off the shower quickly and tried my best to help him through his panic.

His eyes started to flutter close, and his body went limp in my arms. Quickly I slipped his boxers back on, and carried him to my bed. His sleeping form looked at peace, compared to earlier. I walked back into the bathroom and redressed myself before going back to Emmett's side.

How could he even be ready to move out with me if he is still having awful panic attacks? On top of it, we got accepted to rent out an apartment, and our move in day is next Wednesday. I put in our application last week without telling him so it could be a surprise.

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After two hours of Emmett being asleep, he finally woke up. I quickly checked his pulse and temperature just in case.