𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 | jung jaehyun

『𝙘𝙝.16』

A/N: kayla and I both got logged out of the account but we're backkk. i finished this chapter today so i'm proud of myself. tbh i didn't think i would be back to writing so soon but this chapter came really easy so yay. anyways sorry if there are typos or anything, enjoy <3!
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I laid my head on his firm chest. Just trying to appreciate the time I get with him. I breathe in his scent, sweet and simple.

One of favorite things about him. He didn't bathe in axe body spray or any other cologne.

The warm aroma made by his downy fabric softener that i made fun of him for but he insisted on using anyway.

My cheek pressed up against his thin white cotton shirt listening to his heart beat, calm breathing and the murmurs of the tv in the background.

I feel a hand land on my cheek which i lean into and smile. I squint my eyes open slowly to look up at him who is already facing me.

"Hey", he breathed out, wearing a comfortable grin.
i turnt my head and rubbed my face, trying to get my eyes to focus.

When they finally did they settled on his matted dark hair and smiling eyes.

Realizing i've been staring, i quickly sit up and try to shake off any drowsiness.

i don't even remember falling asleep. almost like he was reading my thoughts, "you fell asleep during the 5th episode", he laughed.

"why didn't you wake me up", i whined, hugging my knees, "we barely see each other anymore, i wanted to spend time with you before school starts back up." his smile softened.

"you looked so peaceful and you were obviously tired so..", he shrugged, "besides you were only asleep for a few hours, we can just spend the rest of the day together." 

i ket go of my legs and rested them on his lap while throwing the blanket on top of us both.

" i guess.... would you be mad if i asked to restart to episode 5?" i pouted, he slightly shook his head and reached his arm out to grab the remote.

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i tuned out the tv as my mind wandered back to how everything could possibly play out.

scenario 1, he finds out eventually, doesn't feel the same way, feels bad/gets awkward and we ignore it.

scenario 2, doesn't feel the same way and gets weird/awkward and things are weird from now on.

scenario 3, doesn't feel the same, is really nice about it,  we get over it and go back to normal. the safer of the 3 is the last one but let's be honest, i'm not getting over this anytime soon.

or.. maybe...
i don't want to entertain the idea or get my hopes up but let's say unlikely scenario 4 or 5 is the case.

unlikely scenario 4, he likes me back, happily ever after.

unlikely scenario 5, he likes me back, not so happy ending...

now debating if telling him is worth maybe losing years of friendship because of a relationship that didn't work out or making said friendship weird.

not sure if keeping it in for any longer is doing me any favors though. i will never understand how he is so oblivious. to everything ,always, ever since we met.

when girls would stare at him or ask them for help on a project, etc. he would never notice and it's irritating. the most infuriating thing about him. the only thing i hate.

i'm obviously aware of what could go wrong with the twice lyrics, but at this point it's in the universes hands.

i don't want to be responsible for how it plays out. i don't want it to be my fault. so if this works then it works, if it doesn't then at least i know.

i'm snapped out of my trance when jaehyun nudges my leg. i quickly meet his concerned eyes. i offer him a small smile and shake my head to assure him it's fine even though i was unsure of that myself.
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i yawned as i opened my unlocked front door and stepped inside. i turned to shut and lock the door before throwing my keys on the counter and making my way to my bedroom.

it was late and jaehyun insisted i stayed over but i figured i needed more time to think and quickly left, not without him also insisting that he at least drives me.

i sighed and collapsed in my bed, too tired to even take my make up or uncomfortable jeans off.
half asleep i lazily clutched my phone and texted jaehyun i got home safely.
my last thought before dozing off was i got to do something. anything.