Runaways

7

it's been three weeks since the party. rosé and hoseok didn't pay much attention to it afterwards but rosé was still a bit skeptical.

but I did decide to take a pregnancy test for precautionary measures.

I sat on the toilet seat, my hands were clasped in between my legs as I stared at the blank space on the wall, waiting for the results of the test.

I sighed, nervous and anxious to just check the test already. I couldn't be pregnant, I just couldn't. my period was supposed to start in a few days anyways, but this was just to be safe.

I inhaled deeply, picking up the test and looking at it.

positive.

fucking positive.

my fingers gave out and I dropped the test on the floor, blinking away the nausea that hit me. how could I fuck up like this?

honestly it was my mistake. I was drunk and so was the guy. then again, I wasn't sure if we used a condom when rosé asked me. what was I going to tell her?

I couldn't tell her. I couldn't tell anybody. this was my mistake and it was up to me to figure out what I was going to do. no matter how bad I wanted to tell rosé.

I couldn't keep the baby. I wasn't even ready to have one. I'm nineteen for fuck's sake. I barely even know how to take care of myself. I don't have a job, I don't have anything to support a child.

rosé and hoseok were at work, so I was all alone in the house.

I went to my room, trying my best to calm my breathing or I'd break out into a panic attack. I checked my phone to see where the nearest clinic was.

two hours away.

it didn't seem real that the nearest clinic was two hours away.

road trip then.

I quickly packed some stuff for the road, I didn't know how long I'd be gone anyways. I contemplated leaving a note for rosé or something.

should I leave a note? her and hoseok would be home soon from work, I'm sure they'd be worried or something.

I quickly grabbed a post-it note, writing WENT OUT FOR A BIT - AREUM on it and putting it on the fridge.

I sighed, taking one last look at the apartment before grabbing my keys and heading out the door.

I licked my dry lips, swallowing the dry lump in my throat as I started the car.

no turning back now.