Abused

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by shamu_dwight

by shamu_dwight

TW: This deals with things like sexual assault, self harm, physical and emotional abuse. So if you are not comfortable with these types of things then please do not read this chapter or the next one.

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Kaycee:

I am not who everyone thinks I am, I have secrets that I have been hiding from everyone that I love for the past few years, secrets that I have etched onto the skin of my arm with a blade that begs to dig deeper into my skin. I have secrets about the loving father everyone believes me to have, even my own family. They haven't seen the real side of him, the side that causes my pain.

He has a side that is filled with true horror, a side that he takes out against me. Leaving deep and colourful markings across my skin and a pain between my legs that feels unbearable. A side of him that causes him hands to tighten around my neck as he is forcing himself onto of me. Where when no one is home he calls over his buddies and makes them pay to use me. Like I am some sort of possession that can be traded and used for their own pleasures.

No one knows about this. Not my mom or siblings, not even my best friend Sean Lew. Now you may be wondering why I don't tell anyone, well that involves my biggest secret of all. My father started to do these things to me when I was six, I started cutting at the age of 10 and at the age of 13 I fell pregnant. I had a miscarriage shortly after I found out. I stopped eating a lot at the age of 14. And at the age of 15 I fell pregnant again while my dad took my out to Florida for those months to have my baby. I am 16 now. Soon to turn 17 and I have a little girl who is one. She lives in an apartment where I spend most of my time now.

I don't tell anyone because I know my father will hurt her if I say anything. So I keep my peace. I bury my secrets deep down under the many bruises and cuts that paint my skin in an array of colours.

I am woken up in the apartment by the sound of the baby monitor going off. I get up out of bed moving to collect Liana. Her name is beautiful just as she is with the meaning of "she who embraces". She has my curls and hazel eyes with the face structure and hair colour. She looks just like me with no resemblance to her sperm donor which is what I have chosen to call my rapist of a father. Preparing for my day I dress us both before dropping her off at daycare before heading to a partner class with Sean.

"Hey Kayc" Sean greets pulling me into a hug and leaving a long kiss on my forehead. "Hi" I say hiding my head in the crook of his neck not to show the blush rising up on my cheeks. "Come on the rest of the gang is here and they want to see you" Sean says as he moves me along with a gentle hand around my waist.

Sean:

During the choreo I couldn't help but notice that Kaycee felt lighter than usual and that her bones were more prominent. She felt much smaller than I was used to. Looking at her as she drinks her water I can't help but notice how the hoodie she once stole from me engulfs her and the bags under her eyes. How could I have not noticed this before?

I was interrupted when the rest of the gang comes over to me. "Hey Sean has Kaycee said anything to you lately?" Bailey asks with a worried look on her face. "Yeah she doesn't look too good, we are all worried" Julian says with Josh and Tahani nodding along with him, looking over at Kaycee as she is lost in thought. "I don't know, she doesn't like to tell me anything now a days" I say just as easily confused as they are.

We finished preforming for this class when the rest of the gang heads to our next class in the next room over. I stay behind wanting to talk to Kaycee in private. Waiting until its only the two of us Kaycee looks over noticing my Intense gaze on her. "Why are you staring at me?" she giggles, although I can sense some pain behind it. Walking up to her I place my hands on either side of her waist rubbings small circles with my thumbs. "Are you ok?" I ask looking deep in her eyes noticing the fear flood in. "Yeah why?" she says forcing a smile. Tightening my grip on her I sigh knowing that she just lied.

"Be honest with me kayc, I'm worried. You look tired and you feel like you haven't eaten in weeks, you just don't seem like yourself" I say brushing a strand of hair out of her face. Keeping my hand on her cheek I feel her sigh and lean into my palm. "I'm fine Sean, I promise. I have just been a little stressed lately is all." she says bringing her hand up to hold the one I have rested on her face. "Are you sure?" I ask still feeling some hesitance being her voice. "Promise" she giggles. "Come on we are going to be late" she says intertwining our fingers and dragging me out of the room.

Kaycee:

Mind way through the second class of the day the whole class goes silence as a women walks in with a baby. I don't get a good look until the lady calls out my name. I see it to one of the girls who work at the daycare. Moving to the front fo the crowd with Sean and the rest of the gang hot on my tail I can't help but feel afraid fo what people might think. I know my friends are only following me knowing that there are no kids in my family and they must be confused.

Before I reach the worker Liana notices me. "Mommy" she screams wiggling around in the arms of the worker. "Hi Li baby" I giggle as she looks so happy to see me. Gathering her into my arms she snuggles right into me. "Sorry to disrupt you but there was an issue with some of the workers and all of the kids had to be sent home, I tried to call you when you didn't answer so I just came here knowing that you dance here a lot." the worker says handing me Liana's bag. "Oh no problem" I say as I soon watch her leave.

"Mommy I missted you" Liana says. "I missed you to" I say as I start to tickle her. She lets out a series of giggles and so do I. When our laughter dies down do I notice how quiet the room is and that all eyes are on me. I feel the blood rush to my face at the fact that everyone knows I have a child. Sean is the first to walk up to me. He has a look of pure love in his eyes as he approaches with eyes on both me and Liana. "And who is this pretty young lady?" Sean says standing beside me.

"Sean this is Liana my daughter, can you say hi to Sean Li?" I say realizing that Sean would never judge me. I am surprised when Li reaches her arms out to Sean. He immediately takes her into his arms and she buries her face in his neck. Sean just hold her in such a warm embrace and brooms his gaze to meet mine and smiles. "She's beautiful kayc, just like you" he says.

I was about to respond when the rest of the gang Jojo and Donavan embrace me with a huge group hug. Releasing me I can only smile as I watch Sean attempting to have a conversation with liana, although it is mostly filled with giggles and words that sound like gibberish. My heart melts at the sight and I felt like I wanted to was euro and see the two of them like that everyday.

No one asks me any questions but most just stare at me as we finish the class. Sean never danced as her was too caught up with Liana. They were already inseparable. As soon as the class ended and everyone cleared out it was only the gang and the choreographers left. They all wanted answers. I knew I would have to tell them and I felt like we were finally safe, like I could finally be freed from this nightmare.

sitting next to Sean I take Liana back in my arms when she reaches out to me. "Um I think that you guys should all sit down, I guess I have some explaining to do" I say looking down at the ground. Sean places a warm hand on my back meant to tell me that I can trust them. They all sit down and look directly at me without a single word, waiting for me to finally speak. Sean starts to rub circles with his thumb and that gives me the encouragement to start speaking.

"So I guess I should start from the beginning....."

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Cliffhanger...