you belong to me | yeonbin | completed

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06.13.20

my baby binnie,

it's been a week since you've left me for someone else. i hope you're happy. if you're happy then i'll be happy. only for you.

i remember the day i confessed to you like it was yesterday. beomgyu, taehyun, and hueningkai could all tell we liked each other. but we were both too blind to see it. we would both have gay panics over one another. how silly of us. i was surprised when you said you liked me too. it had always been that way.

i remember our first date too. i took you to an amusement park. very cliche, but very fun. you were doing that cute little pout of yours because you couldn't get a plushy you really wanted. i dragged you to the ferris wheel. little did you know that i had gotten the plushy you really wanted. i still remember how your face lit up when i showed you. your eyes sparkled and you did that bunny smile of yours with your dimples showing. you looked like a kid at a candy store.

binnie, is it too early to say i miss you? if you ever want to come back to me i'm here. i miss you showing up to my house and jumping into my arms. i miss your bunny smile. i miss how you would cutely pout if i didn't agree with you on something. i miss staying up late and pillow talking with you. i miss how your hand would fit perfectly into mine. i miss you, binnie, i miss you. i miss us.. i want you back. but i can't be selfish. you love someone else now. and it's not me. so i need to let you go.

i still love you. and i always will.♡

xoxo
-your junnie

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yeonjun closed his journal and sighed as he looked out his window from his desk. he saw soobin with his new lover outside acting all adorable with each other. it made him feel sick. he still doesn't want to accept the fact the soobin is no longer his. he belongs to someone else.

tears run down his face as he remembers all of the memories he shared with soobin.

why does soobin have to come and act all lovey-dovey in his neighborhood. is he trying to make him feel sorrowful? because it's certainly working.

yeonjun gave him everything. he gave him his love and affection and soobin threw him away like he was a piece of trash.

"three more months.."