you belong to me | yeonbin | completed

#3

07.02.20

bin bin,

how have you been? i hope you're doing well. actually, why wouldn't you be doing well? you have a new love. he loves you and you love him. so you're obviously just swell.

but i could be doing better. my mental state is horrible. i don't come out of my room. i've hardly eaten in the past couple of days. and every time i see a stupid thing that reminds me of you i ball my eyes out. i can't get over you and it's ridiculous. it's been what? a month? i don't want to let you go.

i feel like nothing without you, binnie. this past month has been horrible. i feel horrible. binnie, you're the other half of me and i need you. there's no one else who could do anything like you did. i'll never find anyone else with the same adorable smile and dimples. i'll never find someone with fluffy soft hair like yours. and i most certainly will never find someone who's hand will fit perfectly into mine like yours. binnie, we were brought together by fate. you can't leave me. you have to come back. the feeling of you not here isn't right.

i've started sleeping with that bunny plushy you gave me ages ago. it's like you're actually with me still. even though you're not. and i doubt you ever will be again. i miss cuddling in bed with you. i miss how you'd bury your head deep into my chest and go to sleep. i miss your soft snores and your fluffy hair.

don't even get me started on your hair. i loved your hair so much. i loved playing around with it. your hair was always so soft, binnie. and i loved when you'd come over and jump into my arms. it was like being attacked by a little fluff ball with the cutest little bunny smile ever.

i love you so much soobinnie, don't you ever forget that. if your new lover ever hurts you i'm always here for you. i want to comfort you. i miss doing that too. even though it made my heart shatter every time i found you crying. i miss being your shoulder to cry on soobinnie.

i miss you more and more everyday binnie. if you ever want to come back to me i'm here. i'll always be here for you.

i still love you with all of my heart. and i always will. ♡

xoxo
-your junnie