you belong to me | yeonbin | completed

#2

06.30.20

my baby bun,

it's been about three weeks. i had a little hope you'd possibly come back to me. i know you won't. and you never will. i still can't accept the fact that you're not mine anymore.

remember last december, we were having a christmas movie marathon. everyday of the month we'd snuggle up on the couch and watch a christmas movie. i loved holding your small waist. i loved how you'd fit perfectly into my arms. but during just about every movie you'd fall asleep and i'd get to hold my sleeping binnie. you look so ethereal when you're sleeping. jeez binnie, sometimes i think you're fake because you seem so perfect.

it hurts knowing i won't be able to do that with you this year. it hurts knowing i'll never be able to do it ever again. i loved watching movies while holding a sleeping binnie in my arms. i'll miss doing that.

i remember how you'd always got clingy when you were sick. you never wanted me to leave your side. it was so cute how you'd pout if i moved away from you. you'd also cling onto my body like a sloth. you were so adorable. i miss my clingy little binnie.

i miss you binnie. if you ever want to come back to me i'm here. i'll always be here for you.

i still love you. and i always will. ♡

xoxo
-your junnie

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yeonjun looked over at a little bunny plushy the younger had gotten him with they first started dating. he went to pick it up and go over to sit on his bed. yeonjun sat in his room with all the lights off and the window blinds shut. he didn't want to see soobin and his new lover. it made him want to throw up. it was like soobin had taken all the butterflies he had given to yeonjun and stepped on them.

yeonjun squeezed the plushy as tight as he could while tears were streaming down his face like a water fall.

"i miss you bun." he said whilst his voice cracking.

he wants a hug from his binnie. he needs a hug from his binnie. even though yeonjun acted more dominant in their relationship, he has feelings too. soobin was always there to cheer him up when he needed it. just a single hug from soobin could give yeonjun so much energy.

"two more months, bun. two more months.."