I wanted to take Kelly out before he left. It was bitter sweet but I couldn't just leave Arizona to be with him. I didn't want him to go but I couldn't show him I was upset. He was already going through a lot.
"Hey Chrissy." I said to Christal.
"Hey girl, I heard what happened."
"Yeah, it really sucks but I wanted to do something for him."
I honestly felt like it would be my last day with him. No one understands how much long distance can hurt a relationship. Especially with an NBA player, who is always busy. It hurts to think about it.
I began to get ready for Kelly's surprise. I wanted to do something he would remember before he left. I went and rented a place where we could be alone. Then I texted him to come to the address.
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When he arrived I was so excited. I cooked him a huge dinner. I usually never cooked for anyone but I wanted to make today special. After we finished eating, I walked him outside to this huge area for us to watch movies together.
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"Wow baby, this is amazing." Kelly said to me. He planted a kiss on my lips.
"I wanted to make today special since it's your last day."
"Come with me." Kelly said.
I felt shocked when he said that. I felt mixed emotions and I didn't quite know what to say.
"Do you expect me to leave school for you?" I replied.
I didn't mean for it to come out as harshly as it did. But it was the truth. I can't just leave because it's convenient for him. I have to put myself first sometimes. I owe myself that.
"Maybe I want you by my side in a new city. You could go to school anywhere." Kelly said frustrated.
"My world doesn't revolve around yours. Am I supposed to go to another school if you leave that team too? I'm not leaving Arizona Kelly."
"If you loved me you would've never said this"
I couldn't believe he just said that. If HE loved ME, he would've made it work no matter where I live or my location. I never asked him to pick me over basketball. So why is he making me choose between him and my personal life.
"I can't believe you just acted like my love for you is a joke. You know what? Have fun in California. Me and you are done."
I walked away with tears in my eyes. But I couldn't keep putting myself last. Sooner or later this was going to happen. Everything happened so fast. Next thing I know he's gone and in California.
He wasn't even trying to give long distance a try. So how was I supposed to be with him. I knew I shouldn't have left him. I secretly wish I had stayed.
