Not the Girl I use to be

Busy

Blossoms POV

Gosh my feet hurt. I feel like all I've done all week is rip and run all over. Don't even get me started on all the ad's, campaigns and fundraiser I've helped out with. Don't get me wrong I"m happy for the work but I'm at my breaking point.

On the bright side Christmas break is coming up so at least after finals I'll have a break from worrying about school. Still I have that interview with Future view in the morning and I'm so nervous that I can't sleep. Perhaps I should talk to Gray about it. He just did an interview maybe he can give me a few tips.

I went to his room and knocked on his door. It opened after the knock so I peeked my head inside. No one was in there. I know I shouldn't have but I walked in. I figured I just wait for him till he came back. I took a seat on his bed before getting bored. That's when I began to snoop. I saw his journal on his drawer and curiously got the best of me so I opened it. I flipped through until I came to a stabbed off page. As I read it a deep sadness filled my heart. It was a letter titled goodbye.

The words written were similar to the words I would have written if I had left behind a suicide note. As I read the last word Grayson walked in and saw me. He must have known what I saw because I couldn't stop crying. When he moved closer I just got up to hug him. It wasn't long until he began to cry as well. I wasn't really sure how long I hugged him or how long we cried.

"Gray-" I began before he cut me off.

"-Blossom" He said before a somber look over took his gaze as he looked at me.

"You first" I said as I reached for his hand. As I grasped it he wrapped both hands around my own.

He hesitated and his lips trembled.

"I...I wrote that a while back. It was when Grey Rain had finally made our big break and I was going on tour. When we fought I thought you hated me and when you told me that you never wanted to see me again I was heartbroken" He said.

"The pressure of trying to make it coupled with all the hate from trolls and haters really got to me. But you know what saved me-" he asked.

I shook my head.

"I was about to take my life one day when you called me. You told me that you had heard one of my songs on the radio and that you finally understood why I had to leave. You told me it was because other people had to experience the happiness that came from my voice. You said that you were still upset to see me go but knew that I was doing something that I was meant for...that night you saved my life" He said.

Tears rushed down his face as he wiped his eyes. I just hugged him even tighter.

"I'm glad you came back to me" I said.

He chuckled before hugging me tightly.

"I always will" He promised.

"Why don't we write a song" I suggested.

He smiled before nodding.

"Yeah. Yeah. I'd really like that" He said.

So let's just say the next morning I was tired beyond belief. Still Grayson gave me some advice about my interview today. He told me to just be myself and have fun.

Still I'm super duper nervous with whip cream and a cherry on top.

I was on set before I even knew it. My manager was reprimanding me for not sleeping enough as I got my makeup touched up before my interview. Once the cameras started to roll I had officially switched into panic mode. Like I literally forgot my name.

The host smiled in a calming way which allowed me to relax.

"Hello everybody and this is Future view. Giving you a glimpse of the future. And today's future and star of our show is none other than Blossom Strongbridge. So Blossom tell us a bit about yourself, like how old are you" She began.