A Nian Story

chapter 10

Sorry for not updating in a while I have been really busy with finals but hope everyone is enjoying the holidays. Just wanted to clarify that none of this actually happens in real life it is completely fictional (obviously because Nikki Reed is still alive and breathing) but I just wanted to reiterate that. Anyways hope you enjoy ;)

CHAPTER 10:

*NINA POV*

It's been 3 months since Nikki died. It's been hard on Ian, I have spent a lot of time taking care of Bodhi when he was arranging things for the funeral. I also took care of her when Paul took him on a mountain retreat to help Ian heal a little.

On other notes Shaun came back from his snowboarding trip a couple of days ago and things have been great. He gets kind of guarded and sensitive whenever I mention Ian but I think that is just because he feels bad for him. He knows that Ian and I are just friends and that we will never be more than that. Maybe we could have but now things are just too messy for that to ever work, it only could happen in my dreams.

*IAN POV*

I would be under exaggerating if I said that things haven't been hard following Nikki's death. I miss her everyday but Nina has been such a big help with Bodhi while I was healing and trying to process everything.

After I got back from my little nature trip with Paul I tried to reconnect with Nina, as friends of course, but when I called her, her boyfriend answered. Let me say that that was an awkward phone call.

"Hello this is Nina's phone"

"Um hi this is Ian Somerhalder I just wanted to talk to Nina for a bit" I paused for a second but quickly added "to thank her for helping with Bodhi while I was away."

"Uh yeah I'll tell her that you called, she is currently getting dressed for a date with me right now so she can't really come and talk." And with that he hung up the phone on me.

I was kind of stunned. I don't even really know who her boyfriend is, I know he's an olympian in snowboarding and is ginger but other than that I don't really know that much about him. Hopefully he doesn't think I wanted to get back together with her, someone had to be an idiot to think that a man who just lost his wife would want to get back together with someone so quickly. But I do miss her smile and laughter, hopefully this Shaun dude won't be a complete dick and be cool with us hanging out.

*NINA POV*

I walked into the main living area where Shaun was waiting for me while I got dressed in preparation for our date. Immediately as I stepped into the room I could sense that something was off with Shaun.

"Uh hey is something wrong?"

"How long have you been seeing Ian?"

"What are you talking about Shaun?"

"Cut the crap Nina I know that your sleeping with him"

"No I'm not, I was just helping him with Bodhi after Nikki died"

"So your playing house with him huh, just going over there and replacing her mother"

"No I could never do that"

"But you wish you could"

"No I don't, where is this even coming from"

"Your lying, I know your lying"

"No I'm not ly--" before I could finish I felt Shaun's hand come across and hit me on my left cheek. At first I was shocked, that had never happened before. Then the pain set in and I grabbed my face as tears started to well up in my eyes. Then the apologies started flowing out of Shaun's mouth like a waterfall.

I didn't know what to do. Do I leave or do I stay. He must have just gotten angry. He won't do it again. Just look at him sitting over there. I bet he feels bad. What will happen if I leave? Where will I go? Were just some of the thoughts that were rushing through my mind.

"Nina baby I'm so sorry I don't know what happened. Ugh I feel like a useless piece of shit. I'm so sorry I won't do it ever again, I don't want to ever hurt or bring you pain."

As he continued to apologize my inner mental battle continued, do I stay and hope that he means what he is saying or do I turn the other way and never look back?

"I forgive you" what why did I just say that? I hadn't figured out my final decision but I think the fear of what he might do if I left made that decision for me.

"Oh Nina I love you so much." He then pulled me into a hug and started to run his hands through my hair the way I like. While normally being held like this makes me feel so safe and loved, right now I feel vulnerable and weak like I am a different person than I was 10 minutes ago.

It was later that night and while Shaun was getting ready for bed, Ian called. I hesitantly picked up the phone.

"Hey Nina"

"Hi Ian. Listen I'm not sure that I can keep helping out with you and Bodhi that much anymore."

"Is this because of the awkward call that I had with who I suppose is your boyfriend" What phone call? I was confused. Shaun never told me about a phone call that he had with Ian? But I decided to just ignore that and pretend that I knew what he was talking about.

"No, no it's not that it's just that I am going to be really busy with work these next couple of months and I am going to be doing a lot of traveling so I am not going to be around."

"Oh yeah I understand, well take care Nina, I know Bodhi and I will miss you being here and helping out. Oh and before I forget thank you so much for helping with Bodhi it was really such a big help. Well I gotta go bye Nina.
"Bye Ian" With that I hung up the phone just as Shaun was walking out of the bathroom.

"Who was that?" Shaun asked.

"Oh it was my manager" I don't know why I lied but I was afraid he might have the same response as earlier"I have some big work trips coming up that needed planning."

"Cool, is there any way possible that I could come with you? I missed you so much while I was on my snowboarding trip and I don't want to spend that much time away from you."

"I-" I started to speak telling him he couldn't but then I remembered what had happened only hours before "I'm sure that would be alright."

"Ugh I love you so much" he said "And remember that I am so sorry for what happened earlier. It may just be best if we don't speak of it again." "Sounds good" I said while also forcing a smile hoping that he believes me. That night while laying in bed I started to silently cry, whilst wondering how he had gotten so much control over everything that I did in such little time. 

Ok so obviously the part with Shaun White is fictional just wanted to reiterate that for like a third time so like no one freaks out lolol