THE DECISION

10

I felt someone hold my hand and with a jerk my body gets collided with some rock solid thing, when I look up, Sidharth was holding me.
A low sob left my mouth and I slammed my lips on him
I try to chew his lips but as it is my first ever kiss I didn't really no how to do it. Sensing my failed attempts, Sidharth placed his hand in my waist and pulled my body further into him, in no time I placed both my foot above his shoes to reduce the height difference between us. Groaning he chew my lower lip harshly earning a moan from me.. His tongue lick my lips urging me to open my mouth, I parted my lips for him.. His tongue enter my mouth and roam all around me... Getting me gasping for air he pulled his mouth and hugged me tightly.

You can leave me now... Says Sidharth after some time.

Huh..??

You can leave me , they are gone now.

Who gone?? What do you mean??

Those boys... He says and remove my hands from his body.
When I was not able to react he jerked my body away from his.

I stood there looking into his eyes trying to understand him.

"Sidharth..." I whisper.

What?? He says harshly.

"We just kissed..." I mumble awkwardly.

"Wow woww woww.... Girl!!
Hold onnnn
you are taking it all wrong.
You kissed me not me ... So please stop pretending like this mean something."!!

"B... Butt you kissed me back"

"Oh actually  I did favor, you know to those boys, like saving them from person like you so that they didn't get into some kind of trouble while playing with some not so innocent chick..." He says smirking.

"So this didn't mean anything to you... "I ask one more time trying one last time.

" No"
"Did you hear me or should I say one more time
Oh let me tell you very clearly.
Miss shehnaaz or whatever your name is this kiss does not mean anything it was just a favor" !!

I cried listening to his words, I just can't believe what I heard.

Ohh please stop this crying session of yours, it literally sucks.

"Sidharth... Please..."
I folded my hand in front of him and i beg him, I pleaded him to take his words back.

A sadness cross his eyes but soon it is replaced by anger

He just jerked my hand and leave me alone in those darkened roads, he just left my broken self.
he left without even turning for once to see me.

I fall in the road and cried my heart out, I was a sobbing mess, I was shaking with those words that left his mouth, that moment we just shared that kiss, my first kiss didn't mean anything to him.
I am feeling like till the date I came to Mumbai all I could remember is crying, crying for him, crying for the situation iam.
I was feeling numb, it was like my subconscious mind is laughing at me... I leave punjab to make myself to live my dream but all I did was get insulted from this guy and cry.

After some time a light flash in my eyes..... Ufff I hide my face to cover my eyes.
A car stop in front of me.

Mam..... Are you OK??

Aahhh... I don't know.... I say slowly.

Do you want me to drop you somewhere... I am cab driver??

He give me his hand to make me stand, thank you...!!

It's okk mam....which place??

Huh.??

Mam your destination??

Ohhh yeah... Street no 4. Gomti colony Andheri.

Yes mam...
I rubbed my hand to warm myself looking outside the window.
Trying to find light in my dark life but just like dark road there is also no light in my life.

Mamm....!!

Yeah??

We reached.!!

Ohhh okay thank you so much.

I payed the driver and try to smile to his helping nature.

I reached the apartment and try to open the door..... Aggghhh great door is locked and I didn't have the key.
I grab my phone to call Nicky to know when she is gonna come back.
It rings for some time but she didn't picked.
I drop to the door in hallway and sit with my back towards the door and didn't realised when sleep took over me.

........

Sana didi, didi.... I felt someone shook me.
I opened my eyes to see reema our, maid.

Didi aap yahan ghar k bahar, aise, matlab.

I try to understand her word and then I remembered I slept outside my house.
Yeah I didn't have key and nickey is outside... I say rubbing my eyes.

Didi aaiye.... Reema says opening the door... I felt so lucky that time that she has one key to our house, because if she didn't come on time, I may get late for my first day in office..... Yeah its my first day.

Thank you didi.

Aap fresh hojaiye... Main tab tak aapka breakfast Bana deti hoon.

I enter my room and opened the curtain and when I felt cold winds strike my face, I remembered my last night, my horrible night...... No Sana you can't cry anymore, not now.... You came here to make your future and you will do that.... Just forgot about Sidharth.

But we kissed... My subconscious mind spoke.

Yeah but it didn't meant anything... Nor to him and nor to you too, so just forget everything and focus on yourself.

I rubbed my eyes one more time to wipe any traces of tear and enter washroom to get myself dressed and prepare for my first day in office.

For a change I wore a navy blue top and denim high waist.
I look into myself in mirror, I'm not skinny as other girls of my age nor iam fat.. Its like I have fat in every place where it is needed... I smiled looking at myself in mirror to cheer myself.
I applied bb cream and light lipstick and wore small heels, though I know I have to work there for quite long time and it's not at all comfortable to wear heels but I need them may be just to boost my confidence.

I pick up my bags, ate my breakfast and leave, hoping for a better day in office.
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I know it's a sad chapter and it may hurt some of you I realy sorry.
And please know my intension are not to portray anyone in badlight it is just needed for the story to proceed.
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