What is love ? When do we find love ? What happens when we fall in love ?
Emelia Adams. A definition of what we call introvert. A overthinker. A simple quite girl who just wants to live her own life with her own decisions but not so possible while...
"A remedy, a melody A memory that's left behind just for me If I stop right now If I just turn it off, will everything will be more comfortable?"
- Jamais Vu by BTS
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James. My ex-boyfriend. My neighbor. And also my first kiss. I have known him for my whole life. You can also say that he was my first friend. He was always there for me, cared for me. He taught me many things. Always supported me in everything. I couldn't have asked anyone better than him. He was the best.
But he broke my heart when he went away for college last year. His reason was that he wanted to build a career and enjoy his college life. And the main reason was that he loved me but not in that way. Well I can't blame him. I am not that great looking and my body is also not like models. I am small and cute. But at least he promised me that he will always be there for me.
The big question is why I am suddenly talking about him. That's because he is walking towards me. He still hasn't noticed me because he is busy in his phone. I am not day dreaming right. Why is he here? I have not seen him since the day we broke up. And then within seconds his eyes met me. He was shocked I can say that. Should I smile and say hi first. I don't know what to do. So I just stood there and waited for him to approach me.
"Hey Lia." He smiled.
"Hey James. What are you doing here? I thought you went to Boston." I couldn't control my curiosity.
"Yaa...I mean I was in Boston." What does he mean by was. "I transferred here. And from today I started my sophomore year here." What!!!
"Oh. That's nice because I am studying here too." He already knows that I think. "It's been a year since I last saw you. How have you been?"
"I am good. I had a nice time at Boston. How are you Lia? Did you study well?"
"Yes, I was in top 10 rank. And I am good actually. You know already how much I loved the idea of going college." I chuckled.
Suddenly a voice interrupted us "Sorry babe. I forgot the directions." A model like girl came. Wow. That's all I can say. She is beautiful. And the way she said babe, I know she is his new girlfriend. I think now I understand why he left me. She is way more beautiful and confident than me. I can never compete with her. Now what should I do. Should I leave. But before I made a move to leave she spoke again.
"Hey! Hi. You are Lia. Right?" What!! How did she know me? Did James talked about me?
"Hi. Umm..." This is awkward. "You are right. I am Lia."
"And I am Lisa." She smiled and came to hug me. "I have heard so many stories about you. It is so nice to finally meet you."
"Stories about me? I hope it's all good stories." I said awkwardly. She laughed.
"James was right. You are so adorable. I know he left you and believe me I have punished him for doing that to you." Is she really telling the truth? James just stood there scratching his neck. He always does that when he is ashamed. Before I could ask her anything she spoke again.
"I know you may feel awkward with me. But believe me I have no hard feelings for you. I have heard all about you from him. And now that we are here, I would like you to consider me as your friend or a big sister whatever you prefer." She looked at me with hope. Should I agree to be her friend? She looks too sweet to say no to her. Maybe I can try. So I nodded.
"We can start with friends." I said to her. "Yes. Thank you so much Lia. I promise you won't regret it."
"So where did you two meet?" I questioned both of them.
"We met at Boston. But we faced some problems there so we decided to transfer here." What kind of problems did they face which made them transfer. I wanted to know but may be its too soon to ask. "What do you study? I know James studies medicine. Do you also study that?" I asked. "Well no. I am Literature student because I hate science." She said. Her phone started ringing so she excused herself.
"She seems nice." I said to James. "Yeah she is. See Lia I am really sorry for what I did but I don't regret that decision." Ouch! That sting. "Maybe I should have done that nicely but it was the right thing. We are not meant for each other. You understand that. Right?" he looked at me hopefully. I still remember the things he said to me that time. 'I waited the whole year for this day so I can leave you and move to the right direction.' I cried so much hearing that. I felt so insecure like I was a bad luck for everyone in my life. My father, my mother, my brother and now even my friends. It was like I was wrong for everybody.
"Hey Lia. Don't cry please. I know what I said was hurtful and I broke you. I am really sorry. It was never my intention to hurt you. But I don't know what happened to me that day." I didn't realized that I was crying until he came and wiped my tears.
"I know. I am sorry I don't know why I am crying. It's just... I don't know really." I tried to stop my tears and calm down. He came and hugged me tightly.
"I am so sorry. It's all my fault. You know I love you right?" I nodded in his chest. He sighed in relief and cupped my face. "I will always love you Lia. I never stopped. I will always be there for you. If you have any problem you can come to me." I nodded.
"And me too. Don't forget me." Lisa said from behind. I wiped my tears and smile at them genuinely.
"Did Stella and Noah came here with you too?" James asked. He knows me too well. I laughed and nodded my head. "You three can never be separated. Can you?"
"Never." I concluded.
"Now we need to hurry James. Our uber is here. It was nice meeting you Lia." Lisa said and hugged me again. She is a big huger.
"Take care Lia. We will meet soon okay?" I nodded and said goodbyes to them.
That went well. I am feeling relieved. I didn't know that meeting James again will make me happy. Now I can talk to him again. He was always a big part of my life. For the past year there came so many situations when I needed his guidance but I couldn't call him. Now I can do that. He was always there to guide me.
Now I have left with a little time to explore. So I decided to go to the Library. I heard that it was the best part. So I hurried to the library.
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