Not A Game | Phan AU

"I'm letting you off easy today, queer. You have 30 seconds to run and if I can still hear you, I'm coming after you." TW -Cutting -Depression -Bullying -Verbal Abuse -Thoughts Of Suicide

Bluebird (Phan)

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THIS STORY IN ANYWAY POSSIBLE. ALL CREDITS GO TO LVCKYPHAN ON ARCHIVEOFOUROWN.

addiction ✎ phan

[COMPLETED] when dan buys cigarettes to a store who has a cute shop assistant

Skinny Love || Phan AU || Sequel to Anonymous.

[All triggers and warnings will be stated at the beginning of each chapter] Dan regrets everything and Phil misses him. But the thing most needed in a relationship was lost. Trust. *** Phil doesn't know what to do with his life and Dan's is encouraged by his parents. Their lives were miserable and they were each oth...

Just like me: phan

Phil: a loser, continuously beaten and picked on by the other guys at school. Dan: popular, arrogant, and confused. What happens when the two collide? Just like me is a story of trust, love and secrets (Ok I'm making this sound like a bad tv drama, just read the fic please, I broke my thumbs writing it. *WARNING* se...

How I Accidentally Killed Dan Howell || Phan

Okay, look. Everyone makes mistakes, right? It just so happens my mistake is at a much larger scale, but it's okay, it's fine, we're good. So I killed the wrong Howell. Well, even grim reapers make mistakes... Right? ●●● (Probs will be pretty short and stupid... Sorry A sort of humor novel don't get butthurt)

The Definition of Perfect(Phan)

"Phil?" "Yeah?" "What's it like to live in black and white?" "Dull. What's it like to live with cancer?" "Dull."

dark • phan

"You're not afraid of the dark, are you Dan Howell?"

Better || phan; sequel to fine.

When so much damage has been done, is it possible to recover and get better?

Fix Me |Phan AU|

©blushinghobi Dan Howell (20) has been hurt and abandoned for his whole life. Left lonely,he had absolutely nobody to talk to. He had a shitty apartment and a crappy job and really,he had nothing to look forwards to in his life. Phil Lester (24) seemed like a really bubbly and happy person. He made YouTube videos onl...

fuckboy

[completed] philgon: she can fuck you good, but i can fuck you better ; copyright © 2016

suicide hotline / phan

Dan's lost in a world of depression, drugs and self harm, and he's had enough. Well, that's until he meets a blue eyed boy called Phil in the most unexpected way. [COMPLETED] TRIGGER WARNING Highest rankings: #1 IN DANIEL HOWELL #9 IN AMAZINGPHIL #12 IN PHAN #7 IN DAN #1 IN PHANFICTION #335 IN DEPRESSION

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE]

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen t...

Puzzle Pieces | Phan

{COMPLETE} An AU where everyone has a puzzle piece above their head. When you fall in love with your soulmate the pieces click together and a heart forms on them. The only problem is that Phil Lester doesn't have a puzzle piece it's just a white square. Then Dan shows up.

Crybaby ♡ Phan

Dan Howell is a pastel crybaby. Phil Lester is a punk fuck boy. Let the games begin... ♡♡♡ {I'm bad with descriptions just read it} Note: I know Melanie Martinez is an awful person, this was written before everything came out about her.

But I'm Straight (Phan AU)

"But I'm straight." Those three words are the words that take Phil over the edge. Like his world is crashing down on him. What's up with his constant flirting and his cheeky smiles and lovey dovey eyes. Phil knows something's up, and he's determined to find out what that something is. //warning: swearing, self harm...

Take the monsters away | Phan (Completed)

Dan howell is starting at a new school, he is abused and raped by his own father, Phil lester is the so called emo fag, people call him that because someone told everyone he's gay, so he gets brutally beaten everyday but pretends as if nothing happens, what happens when they met? Started: August 30th Ended: January...

Paint It Black (Phan fic)

Dan and Phil seem to have a pretty good life. They are a couple of the most famous youtubers, the work on their own radio show, and they're best friends. Phil couldn't be any happier. But what happens when Phil finds out about the other side of Dan he hasn't met yet? WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL TENDE...

He Speaks Suicide (Phan AU)

TRIGGER WARNING: If self harm, blood, abuse, suicide, etc disturb you, then maybe this isn't the fic for you. I have plenty of others if you don't like the subject of this one. Do you ever just want to be a raindrop? Falling and falling until you hit the ground and that's when it all ends. **This fanfic will contain...

The Lion and the Llama (Phanfiction)

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan and Phil start having feelings for each other, but after one of Dan's nightmares causing him wanting Phil to sleep with him the rest of the night, things start spiraling out of control. (Phan, self harm, swearing etc etc etc) Ok, I'm terrible at descriptions, but if you wanna know what actually h...

You're The Straw To My Berry (Phan)

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

heart like yours / phan

"i'm counting down the days to go." or in which a boy who is waiting for his life to be over may be losing to cancer, but he also saved his best friend's life and, in return, won his heart.

ferris wheel // phan au

"would it be weird if i said i was thinking about you?" "no, it'd be quite fitting, since i was thinking about you too" ♡⚣♡ in which two strangers sit next to each other on a ferris wheel

Ephemeral

Originally titled open window currently re-writing so sorry e·phem·er·al /əˈfem(ə)rəl/ lasting for a very short time. Nothing lasts long for Dan. His dad dies when he's young. His brother is drafted into the war. His friends don't ever stay. His best friend is still around, but only for now. He thinks things might act...

My Blood, Your Bones - Phan

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek h...

Fighter-A Phan Story

Dan Howell and Phil Lester are constantly haunted by Dan's suicide attempt. A story about love, depression, and recovery. This is a series adapted from the one shot, Skinny Love. Read it here:http://www.wattpad.com/story/3493044-skinny-love-phan Triggers: Suicide, depression, boyxboy Author Note: Written by request

Shout (Phan)

A story where the quiet Phil Lester keeps all his problems in a note book- A note book that gets lost. The popular Dan Howell finds the note book, and sets out to help the lost boy.

Beautiful Phan

A fanfiction about Phan - When Dan makes a rash decision to commit suicide, and fails, Phil has to rush back from his holiday to see him, and most importantly, to find out why. But with Dan withholding information as to why he did it, and Phil trying desperately to make something of his life - will they ever discover...

Broken and Fixed.

Slicing open your skin every night over something so small is completely and utterly stupid. But for Dan Howell, there isn't any other way to show that he's hurting inside, Sure, there's AmazingPhil whose presence enthrals him yet you can't cure hurt just from a couple of videos that last only a few minutes. But what...