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I've tried to hang my self several times. Drugging isn't something I want to try. I can never find a high enough place to jump. I've been suicidal for a long time. I'm not very pretty, lanky and awkward. Red and purple darkness under my eyes from lack of sleep,stress and being deprived. Various pimples and blackheads. Tall with no curves. Huge forehead. I'm not looking for pity. I've been bullied all my life for how I look and my awkward being. Ugly looks and laughs at my face every day when I walk down the hallway. Stared at. Glanced at. Stepped on like a bug. All my "Friends," have boy friends and wear make up and go out. I never go out with friends and stay in my room drawing all day. I have good grades and never tell my parents about being picked on or bullied. I love writing. It makes what I have left of myself feel better. I hate going to school and enduring the pain and hatred i feel of just being there.