Strong Hold

"Look I'm sorry you have to find out like that but I was going to tell you myself it's not real it's not it's just what my mother wants and I'm just trying to comply with her wants just so she can leave me alone leave us alone baby please you know that I love you...you know i do" he said.
"you know what Matteo these last few months you've been real fucking sorry so much that I actually hate the word now I'm just so sick of the apologies, the missing dates, the meeting in secrecy, the pretending I'm just your friend so if your gonna get married because it's your mom wants then by all means go ahead because I'm so done with whatever it is we had going between us. I'm not going to watch you enjoy your life and live happily ever after while I hide mines it's not who I am and I'm not changing or doing things that I shouldn't do for you anymore goodbye Matteo". And with those words i drove off in my car with a quarter inch roll down window and left him their i didn't dare to look back because my heart is way to fragile i can't go back now not to how our "relationship" used to be and i use the word "relationship" freely because I don't know what we had now I was so stupid in the beginning to think that's what we had.....