Skater in love with a gamer || sapnap x fem reader

First thing I always think when I wake up is why I'm still here, I know it sounds pretty cringey or attention seeking but in all honesty it really is the truth, I can never seem to answer that question "why am I still here" I always feel so disappointed not even I feel disgusted, I feel like I'm a waste of space even my "friends" think so except Tommy.

Tommy is a blonde blue eyed boy that I've known since we were basically in diapers were neighbors so I wouldn't be surprised if I was forced to be friends with him but honestly, surprisingly he's a really nice person not just saying that out of sympathy but really, he's the one who got me started into streaming we both made videos together when we were in our early teen years I stopped after because I had lost motivation to keep on going in making videos and life..

He didn't take no for an answer me Tommy and another good friend Freddy, would make pretty funny videos me and Tommy met a boy on hypixel on stream Tommy invited him on the discord call, his name was Tubbo. Tubbo is a really sweat guy nicer than Tommy of course, but that doesn't mean that he couldn't be a dick either.

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Started on November 25