Joel's boyfriend touched him all the time, but it didn't feel right anymore. It made Joel's skin crawl, which was fucked up, because he used to love being touched. In hindsight, it was probably his body trying to tell his brain something wasn't right with his relationship. At the time, he just thought there was something wrong with him. Regardless of the reason, the strength of the urge to smother Chris against his chest took him aback because he hadn't felt anything like that in so long. And he kind of liked it, which really scared him. *ADAPTATION* You can find the original story on ao3 and it's called "Comfortable Silence" by galacticsugar. All credit belongs to them.