Was it my helplessness all along, was it my carelessness, was it my deviation from the Creator,was it me. All these thoughts go through faheemah's mind. Let's find out whether the decisions she took change her life for the better or worst with her daredevil cousin sister, Anisa. Dive in! *** I can't believe my own dad will go to such an extent. And I can't believe I tried to do this. Am so ashamed, so embarrassed and so awful. I wish to just die! ... Notice! Suicide is Haram in islam , even though you are at the lowest point in your life that thought shouldn't even cross your mind.