My Sweet Psychopathic Self

My name is Jillian and I feel like I am invisible, my mom and dad won't pay the slightest attention to me so I just flip in my head and leave everything behind. My brothers Tom and John are being protected by me until they can handle themselves on their own. I get insecure by a boy who loves me and who is a year older than me and can't show my feelings because I will feel that he will not love me back. I am afraid to show love of affection since I don't know how it feels and do not want to be hurt by anyone and want to stay alone which I think is best. On the other hand I have a enemy who wants to destroy my family and cause me pain. I need to kill the person before any harm can be done.