I feel numb. I just got into a fight with my parents and they said such terrible things too me that I don't dare repeat. At first I was sobbing and my chest ached and my head hurt because I wad hyperventilating. I want to go to somebody, ask for help dealing with all of this. Dealing with anxiety and depression, dealing with my eating disorders and insomnia, but I can't bring myself to ask. I feel like I'm a burden, to everybody around me. I want to see my friends, in hopes of finding somebody to talk to, but then I remember that I'm fake around them. That think I'm perfectly fine and happy, but in all honesty I'm dying inside. I feel like every day I struggle to get through. I love my friends, I do, so that's why I would never burden them with my petty issues. I can't go to a professional, because my parents would never approve of that. I'm so tired, so done. I'm not sure how much longer I can go on like this. God knows I'm getting zero sleep tonight.
I'm sorry guys, I just had to get that out. It probably had terrible grammar and all, but I'm too numb to care. I'm sorry I haven't been active on wattpad lately, but the reason is due to my mental health. Have a lovely evening,
Amber x