When someone dies, some people say they wish it should've been them dying instead so the other person could live.
If you truly loved someone, you wouldn't want to put the feeling of losing someone on them. The best thing you can do is live on and do what your loved one would want you to do.
I know what it feels like to lose someone you love. But never ever do I want to take their place and die myself and have them come back. I'm here to shoulder the burden of losing someone, not to push it off into someone.
Sorry, just some deep thinking I've been doing.