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this year started horribly i hate this shit
          I'm nooooottt gonna stay sane if things keep going the way they are

fuck survival if next year is the same im sick of this shit

i've spent years of my life surrounded by people who claim to have loved me, yet never showed up for me the way i needed them to 

fun fact i did not beg him to stay

how does one get broken up with TWICE by the same person and i still wanna beg him to stay??

i feel so pathetic 

4 whole years down the drain. at least back then i was being smart abt it

was never gonna come on here again but the past week has been so overwhelming i don't even recognise my emotions anymore. i can't entirely tell if i feel anything anymore. 
          is there any other solution other than ignorance on order to have some joy?

logging off

i may have overshared a bit too close to the sun