i really do wanna grow up with you. ive been wanting and i still want that now. in person though. i know i literally just said that ive felt more connected to you online than i have w other ppl in person, but if ive felt like that through a damn screen, imagine how id feel in real life? insane right? i dont mean to dim anything bc online really did work due to both of our situations. i mean i was half way across the world in a whole ass different country to start w. but all thats changed yk? yes online worked, and it worked so well, completely agree. but it worked back then. it was like a phase part and now that parts done. i want to move to the next part and be more than just someone you know online. i wanna be your best friend, in person, in real life. i know you arent as open to the idea as im. you've definitely made that clear the entire time we've known each other. and ill wait for you to be more open, i have no problem with that. but its been a year xav. please come back. i really really do wanna grow with you. i wanna live with you, and get married and have you there, and have you be the godfather to my kids, and i wanna become a doctor and have you there at my grad, and all of it. i wanna live all of my life with you in it. i truly do love you. thatll never change. i just hope your view of me hasnt changed either.
anyway, i think thats all i wanted to say.
ill talk to you later, really soon, okay?
come back soon.
take care of yourself, xav.
