Hopeless

What's your guy's favorite Wattpad story. I need a good read.

Isn't it sad. When you feel like your last. You feel like you lost. You feel like you're mad. You're sad but don't know how to express it. You cry in front of mirrors but not people. You hide to let your emotions out. Someone walks in, everything is fine. You don't know how to tell someone you're hurting. You're afraid if you say something you'll become a burden. Isn't it sad that you have no freedom. You're a teen but can't leave the house. You've been stuck at home for 4 years, everyone has grown except for you. Everything has changed except you. You want to scream but can't let it out. Why can't I be like everybody else?

Had the worst B-Day ever, my Grandma didn't remember until late afternoon, some of my Tías forgot, all of my uncles forgot, my step dad forgot. I didn't do anything special, spent the whole day doing homework... Felt like a burden to everyone. I wish I was little again.

GUYS PLEASE GO FOLLOW MY GOOD FRIEND!!!
          THIS WOULD MEAN THE WORLD TO HER AND ME!! THANK YOU!!
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/user/Millix_Goofy101?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_profile&wp_page=user_details&wp_uname=1-800-Hopeless-Bitch&wp_originator=VkTWNUqN60jmVphEO5ZP9NdEhYskeFpB2cvSwJ1Iy1Rb8UqeswxQqueWGfBkMVD4UdUeKicrlVNU8h%2FWZwUA06eTpsVILDOVUrrRm9EAT4BSYkjU2xRfsDtfuNodAScQ

Im a quitter 

GUYS- I HAVE TO DO THE PSAT TESTING TOMORROW T_T Wish me luck plsssssss

LMAO Me and my well no ex boyfriend, weren't doing so well with just being friends. He honestly made it really confusing. He told me we should be friends to get to know each other better so I agreed cause it seemed thats what he wanted. Yet for a couple of days he kept on calling me ml (my love). 
          Then he proceeded to start responding to my messages later and later. 2 days ago he literally lied to me saying that his account got hacked, but he saw my messages and didn't respond. While his "account was hacked" he posted things on his story too. He just chose not to reply to my messages. Then the next day he just ignored my good morning message entirely. I know he wasn't busy because he kept on posting things on his story.
          He was avoiding. He was choosing to slowly leave. So I left first. I unfollowed and blocked him. I've been left so many times before. But what hurts is that he said he loved me. Yet he does that. I told him my fear of people leaving. 
          
          Do you guys think I did the right thing of leaving first?

We used to spend so much time together. 
          You'd take me and my sister out to eat.
          We'd spend hours in your room.
          Spending time with you.
          Playing Video Games
          Watching Tv shows.
          Watching movies.
          Making Jokes.
          We'd eat together.
          We's play with your car collection.
          You made us feel happy.
          We created so many memories...
          What happened?
          Why did you change?
          Why do you avoid me?
          I ask these questions, but I already know the answer.
          I don't want to accept it. 
          Your Wife changed you.
          You avoid me because I look like my mom. 
          But my mom never did nothing bad to you.
          Neither have I.
          So why do you do this?
          I'm still the same.
          I yearn for our bond that is now gone.
          You don't speak to me like you used to.
          You don't even talk to me unless I talk to you first.
          Why did you throw away our bond and our family bond to the trash just for your wife?
          We've been there for you
          
          We didn't change
          It was you.
          You changed.
          You decided not to talk to your family for months 
          Yet when you come back
          everyone pretends like nothing happened
          Why do we do this? 
          Because we missed you.
          Even after how much you hurt us
          We'll pretend like everything is fine just to speak with you.
          We'll pretend but its just pretend...
          Why did you change?
          Why hurt us?
          Why leave us?
          Why leave me?
          Why ignore me?
          Why avoid me?
          Why?

Don't you hate it that people change? 
          Don't you hate it when you know you're losing the bond you once had with someone you loved? 
          The conversations getting duller. 
          Them taking longer to respond. 
          They stop calling you by the nicknames they chose. 
          They start ignoring you. 
          They start avoiding you.
          They start looking at you differently. 
          And you can't figure out what you did wrong.
          You can't figure out why.
          All that's in your mind is the word "why?" 
          Repeating over and over.
          Never ending.
          Don't you hate it?

           His arms slithered across my waist. I can feel his breath against my neck. 'It's so warm' I thought. I never been showed this kind of affection before. Why am I getting so nervous? 
          
          The way his breath hits my neck, it sends shivers down my spine. The way his fingers rub my stomach, pressing it down gently doing circular motions. It's all driving me insane. My mind wanders to the unthinkable. I can't be feeling this way.
          
          I mean yes, we're together but it wasn't that long ago when we had our first date... I don't want to rush things. But he makes me so happy. He makes me feel beautiful... So- is it wrong for me to think this way? For wanting more?....
          
          As I'm contemplating with myself, he placed his lips on my neck. He's kissing it. Oh God, this feels so good. I don't want him to stop. His soft lips grazing my neck, leaving wet marks everywhere his lips land. 
          
          "Do you want this?" He whispered as he continued his soft assault on my neck. His arms, now slowly going up and down my stomach. 
          
          "We're not going too fast- right?" This is my first relationship... I don't want to mess this up. Are we going too fast? Are we rushing things? But- are we really rushing things if we both want it? 
          
          "I can wait if you're not ready, my love"
          
          "I- I am ready! O-Or I think I am... I just don't want to rush into everything." 
          
          "If it's causing you to overthink, then we can wait until you fully know." 
          
          "No- ... Please don't stop ... I do want it. B-But it'll be my first time..." 
          
          "It's okay to be nervous, baby. I'll be gentle." His hands are now under my shirt, caressing my bare skin. "Just tell me to stop if you feel uncomfortable."
          He says now kissing my collarbone. 
          
          
          (What you guys think??  :D)