cardansnemesis
Also about your brother, instead of grieving for his mom, he is dealing with you? What is wrong with him?
cardansnemesis
I am so sorry i didn't see your messages earlier. I am really really sorry girl. I know you need to be strong, but maybe its time to let yourself feel all the emotions. Holding them in will only torture you. Dont do this to yourself. Sometimes to be strong mean letting go, not holding in. And pls stop blaming yourself. I know all of these are easier said than done, but it really wasnt your fault. You had no control over what happened. Think of your mom, she wouldn't want you to feel like this. She loved you and lived for you, you were all she had, and you will be strong and move forward in life, you will achive things, and be happy and in peace, without any of the fuckass relatives bothering.
cardansnemesis
@Adrikismyxxlove you're in pain, and in shock. Its normally to feel like that. People experience pain in different ways. Maybe you won't cry now, maybe the numbness will fade or stay for longer, but you loved your mom, you still do. With time your pain will ease, and then you will figure out your emotions. The thing is, right now you matter. You have a life ahead. The ache on your chest will start to fade away eventually. You will be better. I cant tell you to just move on with your life, thats impossible at the moment. But you need to get up and do all the things that matter to you. You are a strong girl and Your mom would be proud of you.
Adrikismyxxlove
@cardansnemesis i thought the tears would come but they never did. I cried the day before yesterday for a while but that's it. I'm starting to question whether I loved her or not? She died a painful death all alone and it will haunt me for the rest of my life. I don't have the energy to get out of bed so I just lie there like a corpse. Also, I've become so numb that when I look at the pictures of her corpse I feel nothing. There's this weird ache in my chest.