.. this has been going on for some time.. I've had feelings like I wasn't good enough for Karaé. And I think that's true... He's just so... perfect. This image of what I wish I could have.... I was scared to face him. To disappoint him.. and he was, too. I feel like I'm keeping him away from something bigger.... a different destiny
I like him, I really do, but it was so hard... Me, being physical, way too emotional, and constantly getting stuck in shitty situations.. Karaé, spirit, non-physical, and longing to explore the astral and the many realms inside-and-outside of it...
We decided to split up, if we even were anything before.. we need some space..
I need someone physical.. who I can spend late nights talking to.. who understands my pain and fears and wishes... someone who understands me..
And he needs someone better... who he can explore with.. who he can recount tales of his past with... who understands him..
Deep down, we both knew this would happen... but we've accepted it, and gone our separate ways..
Yeesh breakups are hard